LittLEdeVIL

2006-10-18T00:05:00.000-07:00

Now i got a new blog webpage
Go to

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/XiaoJie0401 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dont forget tO lINK ME oh
There got my ablum n my blog n my own personal guestbook oh!

our lantern night~~

2006-10-16T05:42:00.000-07:00

Baby i'm perfect for you

2006-10-12T23:46:00.000-07:00

Paris Hilton ** Stars Are Blind

I don't mind spending some time
Just hanging here with you
Cuz I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do
Those other guys all wanna take me for a ride
But when I walk their talk is suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside
And I'm satisfied, oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby i'm perfect for you

My love, ohh oh

I could be your confidante
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that love's what you want
If tomorrow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love?
Now tell me who have you been dreaming of
At night at home? oh no, ohh

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby i'm perfect for you

Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
Might be me feeling
It could get physical, oh no, no no

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mine

I can make you nice and naughty
Be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you

Baby I'm perfect for you

Even though the gods are crazy

Even though the stars are blind

Even though the gods are crazy

Even though the stars are blind

My man & His Lady

2006-10-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

This week started with a little tiring scent in the atmosphere, i go to school feeling a heavy weight hanging over me, think its the result of lacking in sleep ba. I'm always sleepless at night and exhausting in the morning. Is it because of having too much pressure on myself with all the Java programming in FYP(Final year project) and having to stand that demanding supervisor who doesnt likes to just mind his own business. I'm totally fare up with him for not understanding people's reason for being late in the morning.. when he stays so near to school and likes to condemm students who stayed further from Yio chu kang.Cant he be alittle more caring or nice ? Not saying that he is paying for my school fees or what. He is just a supervisor lor.

Recently i painted my nails golden with blink blink effects so sweet, if only i can keep it for the whole month and not to endure seeing it peeling off every day a centimeter by a time... so ugly at the edge of my nails now.. so want to go for a manicure and pendicure leh~ anyone can tell me where to earn money fast enough for me to save and get these beauty~

Friday 6 -10- 06
Our zhong qiu jie lor ! ming teck told me his brother will be coming out from 6pm to 10pm from camp same as dear's. I immediately msged and asked him whether is true, he only can confirm with me at that moment was it might be cancelled as somethings cropped up. Then i replied him to msg me about the updates later on. At around 7plus i finally received his msg " jus reached home, now then can msg you my phone no batt, where are you my dear " this just pissed me off, why cant he just borrow his platoon mates phone to msg me or call me, just make me feel that giving me a msg is not important at all, maybe it was that instant that i flamed up for such a small issue, when for now i think of it, is really just a small issue lor.

But later he cant understand why i got so angry, he finally confessed why he didnt wan to tell me. "because i promise my army friend to play game with them " ya.. he didnt wan me to go over and distract him ba.. well.. gave me a pinch on the skin ; why do i have to make myself so useless over a guy who only knows about the promise with his army friend and many times find excuses to cover up the times he cant fulfill his promises to me.

Satuarday 7-10-06
I was feeling better in the morning i went over and didnt at all please myself and him too... i totally got so tired of travelling such a long way to look for him, and ya because the weather was bad at that time too, i felt more worst.. But till dinner time then i slowly open up to him, he cuddled me in bed and he fall asleep, i went off and played with my lanterns haha was so beautiful i loved lighting candles at night, will post the photos later tonight.. then he woke and we spend the night watching the candle waving brightly at us..

Sunday 8-10-06
We woke and he continued his games and i placed myself comfortably in his living room folding all his army attire for him and packed all these neatly into his huge army hand- ling bag.. Is this what i always hoping for to be his sweet lover who do all those small little things for my man.. ya ya.. at that moment i felt so lady oh ( >_< ) .. of coz he was sweet to me listen to what i say and we spend one whole day at home till 10pm he went back army.. He didnt wan me to take train home so he gave me enuff cash to ensure i get home fast.

just hope to see him soon..2 more days~ anyway he got SILVER for his Physical training test oh~~zhen li hai~~ CONGRATES CONGRATES~ ~ ZAI JIE ZAI LI

Birthday Calculator

2006-10-04T18:59:00.000-07:00

Birthday Calculator

27 September 1987

Your date of conception was on or about 4 January 1987
which was a Sunday.
You were born on a Sunday
under the astrological sign Libra.
Your Life path number is 7.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 4 & 22.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 & 11.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447065.5.
The golden number for 1987 is 12.
The epact number for 1987 is 0.

The year 1987 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/29/1987 and ending 2/16/1988.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rabbit.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Raven; your plant is Ivy.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Choiach,
the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 5 Tishri 5748.
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1987.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1987.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was
Wednesday 4 March 1987.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 7 June 1987.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 June 1987.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Thursday, 24 September 1987.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Tuesday, 14 April 1987.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 3 March 1987.

As of 10/4/2006 9:52:49 PM EDT
You are 19 years old.
You are 229 months old.
You are 992 weeks old.
You are 6,947 days old.
You are 166,749 hours old.
You are 10,004,992 minutes old.
You are 600,299,569 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Avril Lavigne (1984)
Mike Schmidt (1949)
Greg Morris (1934)
William Conrad (1920)

Stephan Jenkins (1964)
Meat Loaf (1947)
Jayne Meadows (1926)
Shaun Cassidy (1958)
Wilford Brimley (1934)
Arthur Penn (1922)

Top songs of 1987

Faith by George Michael
Alone by Heart
La Bamba by Los Lobos
Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now by Starship
Didn't We Almost Have It All by Whitney Houston

Livin' On a Prayer by Bon Jovi
With or Without You by U2
I Wanna Dance with Somebody by Whitney Houston
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For by U2
I Knew You Were Waiting by Aretha Franklin & George Michael

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.71898238747554 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 358 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 20 candles.
Those 20 candles produce 20 BTUs,
or 5,040 calories of heat (that's only 5.0400 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.29 US ounces of water with that many candles.

Your birthstone is Sapphire

The Mystical properties of Sapphire

Though not meant to replace traditional medical treatment, Sapphire is used for clear thinking.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Agate, Moonstone, Lapis Lazuli

Your birth tree is

Hazelnut Tree, the Extraordinary
Charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression, active fighter for social cause, popular, moody and capricious lover, honest and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgement.

There are 82 days till Christmas 2006!
There are 95 days till Orthodox Christmas!

Stars ~

2006-10-03T22:47:00.000-07:00

My horoscope for the day **

One of your callings is to look out for authenticity in the people you encounter. But what is curious about that is that because of your desire to be loved, you change certain things about yourself in order be more desirable and attractive to other people. You may yourself have the tendency to not be completely true to your real self. Today's planetary energies will help you get back in touch with your own feelings.

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wah ! It said i've changed myself in the desire to be loved by people wor ~ is it true ma? @_@
Bu zhi dao leh.. but hope dear dear see this blog..(>_ <) hmph still say i very demanding..even the stars say i changed liao.. must be more sweet to me liao or i *BITE you.. call your sergent to confined you dont let you come out then you kNOw muaHAhahahaha ~~** ( i still sound demanding hor o_O)

JIAYO wo de peng you meng!

2006-10-03T18:05:00.000-07:00

hohoho~

GooD mORNIng NYP~

Miss Liang finally reached schOOl at 8.30am ++ .. thats something to be Happy About.. Took the wrong bus to school went to eunos instead -.-
I nEEd to work towards of having gradeB and above for my FYP must come to school early liao..

Hoping a A lar.. so that i can pull my pathetic GPA , in order to get into a U maybe? Hope my wishes can at come true lor .. even though i find it quite impossible.. Just saw lin chong's da shao that day .. the way she speak and the aura she gave out impresses me and greatly encouraged me to get into one of the degree school !!! =X

Now week 4 passed in a flash, and dear went in to his sispec camp for the 3 week lor, he seems to be doing quite well inside.. haha.. knew he will adapt very quickyly in any sitution one.. bec he's my number ONE yay!!! Jus miss him alotalot..everyday wait till ten plus then can receive his msg for me to call Him.. that time is always the hardest n worst period of the day.. dont dare to bathe or sleep - .- damm.. buT tHIs will be the process of ouR love story for the next generation ~ maeeeeeee*

Recently so busy with this FYP i kinda didnt have time to contact some friends from secondary school and those from work ~ wanna find some time off to go see them soon ~ wuwuwuwuwu

Now i guess everyone doing work in their respective places ba. Must work hard everyone oh.. Miss Liang will *fighting* (korean word) with all of you!!

3 big days

2006-10-01T19:43:00.000-07:00

ohhhh~

is such a tiring thing to wait from Monday to Friday to pass..

esp. having to sit in this lab here.. pretending to do something but actually not doing any work at all

may Our days be blessed with PEACE and propesrity

recently i just passed my 19th birthday received a kitkat chocolate and a calender and a Bracelet
from my beloved friends .. oh INCluding a treat to sakae sushi and kboxsss ha ha ha damm fun and memorable...

On wc bdae our big brother lin chong sent me home .. damm sweet lor.. ^^ really appreciate for whatever he done .. very touching ^^ xiexie ni

Then on lin chong party on sat we went to this sappire court or sth.. for his open air BBq.. haha i ate so much but my dear just sat there watch the crowd.. ha ha ha.. its was fun and everyone brought their partner and we gossip from night to midnite..took photos and all. still rmber there was a kitty beside the bushes and we throw chicken wings lar crab meat lar. haha .. then mydear and i brought a coffee cup for lc.. ^^ hope he likes it.. oh!

and we spend our 18th month at home.. he promise to get me another ring~ sweet lei > _ <

... strolling on the road back home..

.. i sang my song..

.. the groceries in you hands..

.. and you smiled...

...... and i looked back to you

i see our little romantic way...

as our fingers tangled together..

i love the way you love me

有些事并不象它看上去那样

2006-09-30T22:30:00.000-07:00

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有些事并不象它看上去那样

　　两个旅行中的天使到一个富有的家庭借宿。这家人对他们并不友好，并且拒绝让他们在舒适的客人卧室过夜，而是在冰冷的地下室给他们找了一个角落。当他们铺床时，较老的天使发现墙上有一个洞，就顺手把它修补好了。年轻的天使问为什么，老天使答到：“有些事并不象它看上去那样。”
　　第二晚，两人又到了一个非常贫穷的农家借宿。主人夫妇俩对他们非常热情，把仅有的一点点食物拿出来款待客人，然后又让出自己的床铺给两个天使。第二天一早，两个天使发现农夫和他的妻子在哭泣，他们唯一的生活来源——一头奶牛死了。

年轻的天使非常愤怒，他质问老天使为什么会这样，第一个家庭什么都有，老天使还帮助他们修补墙洞，第二个家庭尽管如此贫穷还是热情款待客人，而老天使却没有阻止奶牛的死亡。

　　“有些事并不象它看上去那样。”老天使答道，“当我们在地下室过夜时，我从墙洞看到墙里面堆满了金块。因为主人被贪欲所迷惑，不愿意分享他的财富，所以我把墙洞填上了。

昨天晚上，死亡之神来召唤农夫的妻子，我让奶牛代替了她。所以有些事并不象它看上去那样。”

　　有些时候事情的表面并不是它实际应该的样子。如果你有信念，你只需要坚信付出总会得到回报。你可能不会发现，直到后来……

ABC of how love should be..

2006-09-28T19:38:00.000-07:00

**ABC of how love should be..

A - Absolutely adore each other
B - Be best friends
C - Compromise
D - Discover new things together
E - Encourage each other
F - Forgive and forget
G - Gaze into each others eyes
H - Hold hands and hug a lot
I - Inspire and intrigue each other
J - Joke and laugh and have fun
K - Kiss Kiss Kiss ;-)
L - Love with all your hearts
M - Marvel at each other's talents
N - Nuture each other's soul
O - Overcome problem together
P - Play games
Q - Quiet each other's fears
R - Remember the little things
S - Say "I love you" everyday
T - Take time for tenderness
U - Understand and care deeply
V - Value everything you share
W - Wish on stars together
X - X-press your true feelings
Y - Yearn for each other's touch
Z - Zzzzz in each other's arm

2006-09-28T05:56:00.000-07:00

Wait On Moving In Together

No doubt you and your guy want to get closer, but living together is a no go right now

You need to work more things out between you - like money and trust issues

Plus, you don't have enough experience living alone to be a good partner

Take time to develop your own interests and sense of responsibility... living together will follow

Should You Live Together?

You Are a Feminine Beauty!

You make any guy feel like a man, simply by standing next to him

You have a classic womanly appeal - and you've got a look for every occasion

This doesn't mean that you can't kick back in (designer) jeans and sneakers

You just prefer to be girly and sweet as often as possible

What Type of Beauty Are You?

He Might Ask You - But Not This Year

You and your guy are playing a game of marriage warm up

Which as fine, as long as you haven't been playing the game for years

Give him time, give him space, you know the drill.

But the real test comes by asking yourself:

"Is this guy ever going to ask? And what would I say?"

Is He About To Propose?

2006-09-28T05:53:00.000-07:00

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way

You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to

Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets

No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Are A Relationship Rescuer!

You don't ruin relationships, if anything you keep them together

The key: you respect yourself and your guy. Which goes further than you might think.

You simply treat your guy how you would like to be treated... the old golden rule.

And in return, he treats you like gold - or at least tries. And how perfect is that

Do You Ruin Relationships?

2006-09-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

You are 87% Libra

How Libra Are You?

You Are 72% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love.

But you're not really getting the deep love you seek.

Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style.

Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.

Are You Addicted to Love?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 80% Pure

You've hardly ever been kissed

But the kisses you've given are very missed

Kissing Purity Test

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

test again

2006-09-21T18:57:00.000-07:00

Baka... why is it so true........ 0.O

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.

Your caring personality really shines through.

Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.

But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

RUby fm

2006-09-20T17:58:00.001-07:00

yoz Good morning everyone from NYP

yeS THis is ruby liang speaking to people in the HOUSE!!

we're.. Opps I Mean... I'M hosting a analyis of HOroscopes today

rIGht here RIght at this GREat moment

Guess everYOne slept well!

Do stay relaxed and enjoy..

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Fire sign ( aries, leo, sagittarius )

+ how to anger them+

step 1 . make them lose face in public..
step 2. shut their mouth.
step 3. halt them from doing anything. tied them to chairs
( dont let them hav any ways to open their mouth )
step 4. critise them!! write in blogs abt them but dont state their names ^^
step 5. CRITIZE THEM!

*clear throat ^^ sorri about that was .. abit over well lets carry on

step6. step on their toes.. ( wear heels)
step7. jus sit there and watch them flame.. ( i'm starting to think i'm abit crazy)
step 8. smile at them when they say u childish ^_^

wellwell if u did all these steps above i ensure you better stay far away from them LOL

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Air sign ( libra, gemini, aquarius )

+ how to anger them+

step 1. stop talking to them n do this ¬ ¬
step 2. scold words to their face !
step 3. be nice to them one day then ignored them the next and loop it
step 4. spread bad things abt them to all his/her friends
step 5. step on their toes~
step 6. SHOUT AT THEM AND SLAP THEIR FACE
step 7. change their decisions ( its hard for them to decide, so when they do.. hee.. CHANGE IT)
step 8. talk behind them but when they are right in front of you

haha ...be so sure by doing all this.. LOL you'll see those patheic creatures wont appear in your life anymore LOL

*clear throat again*

okay... think the show time is up..do stay tune to my aNalysis NEXT week same time same place...

*wooooof~* a shoe jus went flying past me.. cOOl.. man ¬¬

(it doesnt imply to everyone.. just for fun~~ ^^ enjoy everyone and smile..i dont accept complains oh..)

buttons

2006-09-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

Hey my Mr Q - READ AnD Get thE point!

Pussycat Dolls
Buttons

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me
(Uh huh)But I ain't seen nothing
(Uh)I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby
(Uh huh)But you keep fronting
(Uh)Saying what you going to do to me
(Uh huh)But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

Typical
Hardly the type I fall for
I'm liking the physical
Don't leave me asking for more
I'm a sexy mama (Mama)
Who knows just how to get what I want and (Want and)
What I want to do is spring this on you (On you)
Back up all of the things that I told you (Told you)
You been saying all the right things all night long
But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off

Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)
You say you're a big boy
But I can't agree'
Cause the love you said you had
Ain't been put on me

I wonderIf I'm just too much for you
WonderIf my kiss don't make you
justWonderWhat I got next for you
What you want to do? (Do)

Take a chance to recognize that this could be yours
I can see, just like most guys that your game don't please
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)
I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

test

2006-09-19T00:39:00.000-07:00

When it comes to love or money, you're a Hopeless Romantic

For richer? For poorer? It doesn't matter to you because you're the Hopeless Romantic. Whether your sweetie is an oil baron or a grease monkey, it's all about until death do us part.Even if you haven't met "the one," you'll judge your soul mate by the love letters, roses, and foot massages — not the size of their bankroll. And even if their wallet is as fat as their sonnet collection, the toughest part of your relationship will be arguing over which charity to choose, who loves whom more, and who's the bigger Schmoopie. And if that diamond ring turns brass, no biggie — your love is totally not-for-profit.

Your relationship is more likely to last if you and your partner improve how you understand each other's strengths and weaknesses.

Your particular characteristics and your attitude toward life have an impact on the relationships you have with others — including your partner. Based on your answers on the test, it seems you might not be focusing on certain strengths you can draw on to develop your romantic relationship. To work as a couple, you need to know how, individually, you can benefit the whole. One thing in particular that may be causing — or might cause — future problems in your relationship, is your level of maturity.

To have a successful, committed relationship, both parties need to bring a certain amount of maturity to the equation. The answers on your test indicate your level of maturity is a bit low if you want to enjoy a healthy relationship. By shirking responsibility, you can sabotage your relationship. But if you can learn to put your priorities in order, paying close attention to the importance of your relationship, you'll likely find yourself in a relationship that could change your life for the better.

2006-09-17T22:50:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wished i can go back time.

when the one i adore can cuddle me in bed.

everything will be so sweet

even on the walls i see stars

shinning bright for us.

If ONLY i could sleep into my dreams forever

i'll have no expectations , no request, no gudges,

This place has been too cold for me to stand still

i tremble i shiver i curse while surrounds with sharp

freezing wind.. piercing into the air i breathe in..

All i wan is to have a pause.. and view the world like

nothing gonna bother me

even if the sky were to drop

i know by his side i would be alive..

2006-09-14T21:16:00.000-07:00

so sweetTTT you know..

froM last sat, sun, mon, tue, wed,And THURS everyday meet dear dear

blessed to have such a patient guy with me, even though throw abit temper at me

but all the way he stay by my side and spend his hoildays with me

yet i still very naughty find small things to quarrel with him @_@...wuwu

on Tuesday dear meet me at Yishun to have his dinner and we went to watch

"bARnyARd" orh~ . GueSS WhAT whole threater only got both of US, damm scary you know

hee~ i wanted to do mushy stuff to him, but that morning i made him angry and his serious face

surfaced to his woody personality, i didnt dare to even touched him HAHA~~ so funny

he smirked at me when i turned to my left side to look into the dark.. damM HORRIble.. all

chairs are empty -.- like something beside me but cant be seen........... wuwuwu

ON wednesday i had the worst moment in my life.. i had nvr been so startled other than

taking planes with f**king air turbences -.- , i went to extract my gumless wisdom tooth on the

top right side... doctor kept telling me "NO...NO...dont worri...wont hurt lar..."

wonder how many times he lie to patients about NOT GONNA BE SCARY!!!

dear paid $85 for one tooth extract.. wa liao.. dont know my tooth can cause so much leh~

hohohoho then yest i got MC lalalalalala.. dear came over to see me...though he just sat there

watch the tv for the whole day... but i just loved staring at him .. x3 my onli hobbie now~

Now dear finshed his POP going to start a new round of training after this week.. #_# ho ho

cant see as and when i want liao but i know i can cope well de.. ^^ dear jiayo oh!MY cougar

warrior~

Many Nights LEFt me sleepless .. dont know why... always have unfinsh business to think about..hab so many question to ask why.. really want to clear a day or two when i can be with someone who can calm my heart, just go for a whole day stroll and do nothing.. wanna relax ... ya ...

2006-08-18T00:49:00.000-07:00

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i have heard of this song for quite long liao... is very sweet...

大冢爱--大好きだよ

好想我的林树荣噢！

快快回来好吗？

。。@@。。

好想他。。

还是离不开他的拥抱。。

看着他们俩躺在床上睡着，男生抱着女孩。。心里甜甜地

就像我跟他...

13-8-06

2006-08-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

Night time lor...

2 week

1 week ....( big differences ...hor.. #_#actually no difference .. too tired to smile )

my baby must be sleeping le..

silent night..sweet sweet night.. our night...

yesterday spend the whole day at his place.. he levelled up my char in LAST CHAOS while i played majong with his mum and brother... haha..

and again.. without much effort maybe? haha with all his luck and love and kisses i was the bIG winner~ actually very unwilling to win his mum but see that he was proud of me, can only say sorri auntie n xin mei @_@

He maybe the most stoned n serious person in this world with 5 wood char in his name but i have the most sweetesT HIM in my world

Cant deny he loves me.. :p

wIth his prescence, i need no big diamonds and beautiful flowers nor sophiscated dinner.. just him holding my hands is enough...

leaving him is not an option but an impossible..

cant deny i love him too

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saw a friend pic in friendster who worked

with me at my previous job in ELC.

she wore the prettiest dress - her wedding gown

with the best combination- her husband..

thats the most beautiful moment ..

i believe.

treasure every moment you spent with those you truely loved,

these will be the memories that will accompanied you thru the rest of your life with him/her.

2006-08-09T10:01:00.000-07:00

This is how love should be...

... a love.. thats he showed me...

...roses are so nice...

8.10.06

2006-08-09T09:27:00.000-07:00

so long i have blog here...

jus send baby to tekong at 7 plus, he was so tired he slept thru out the whole journey on the train, like a small baby,sleep so deep he shivered once in a while , i wanted to laugh but was so immersed in holding him up, i just put my arms around him and hold him tight...

so sweetly when i getting down the train he touch my face and bid me goodbye.. ohhh... i'm so in loved.. well.. just pray his scar - hands recovered from the wounds made hanging on the monkey bar.. LOL..

Nw i'm studying for my two test tomorrow, guesss everyone is working hard..^^ jIAYOU le! gogo fighting! Find my new classmates very hardworking in helping each other..thanks alot.. gonna say goodbye to all my ex- classmates from e8.. i wont be in the same group with them in projects.. will miss our days together..know each other so well.. like brothers and sisters.. though we have misunderstandings and quarrels..but stil we are the same people who were in the same class for 2 yrs rite? Lol..i wish u all happiness.. muack :)

旅行的意义

2006-07-05T06:43:00.000-07:00

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陈绮贞 - 旅行的意义

你看过了许多美景
你看过了许多美女
你迷失在地图上每一道短暂的光阴
你品尝了夜的巴黎
你踏过下雪的北京
你熟记书本里每一句你最爱的真理
却说不出你爱我的原因
却说不出你欣赏我哪一种表情
说不出在什么场合我曾让你动心
说不出你离开的原因
你累积了许多飞行
你用心挑选纪念品
你收集了地图上每一寸风和日丽
你拥抱了热情的岛屿
你埋藏记忆的土耳其
你留恋电影里美丽的不真实的场景
却说不出你爱我的原因
却说不出你欣赏我哪一种表情
却说不出在什么场合我曾让你分心
说不出旅行的意义

你勉强说出你爱我的原因
却说不出你欣赏我哪一种表情
却说不出在什么场合我曾让你分心
说不出离开的原因

勉强说出你寄的每一封信
都是你离开的原因
你离开我
就是旅行的意义

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这首歌轻轻柔柔让大家听了粉舒服噢
尤其是她写的歌词粉有意思，有感动噢!
爱情本来是甜甜的，为何爱一个人会让心情酸酸的？
说爱一个其实不会这么难吧。。到底是爱还是不爱？
说出爱不应该是勉强的吧。。让你爱的人明明白白的知道你爱她吧！

sweet

2006-06-18T02:11:00.000-07:00

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1. DON'T FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING.
[She won't trust you if you do & it'll be awkward]

2. Grab her hand when you walk next to eachother.
[She always gets butterflies when you do it; itmakes her feel you want her]

3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
[It makes her feel you really love her.]

4. Cuddle with her.
[She'll feel you are there for her]

5. Hug her from behind
[It makes her feel special]

6. Write little notes.
[She smiles. They're cute; The end]

7. Compliment her Honestly.
[No girl likes a liar and no girl likes a person wholies about it when you compliment her]

8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as longas possible.
[It makes her feel wanted]

9. Be super sweet to her.
[All girls like a super sweet guy]

10. Call her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
[She'll go to bed with a smile]

11. Comfort her when she cries.
[She'll feel you'll ALWAYS be there for her]

12. Wipe away her tears
[It'll show you'll always be there]

13. Love her with all your heart.
[Not with your brain... or your dick]

14. Pick her up and flirt with her (she'll screamand say put me down but really she loves it).
[It's true boys!]

15. Be a gentleman (hold the door for her).
[Every girl loves a guy who is a gentleman]

16. DON'T let your friends talk trash about her,it'll get back 2 her
[& it'll make her feel like you aren't really therefor her]

17. Take her for a long walk at night!
[She just wants to be alone & that's not always bad. The world can be annoying sometimes & you just need to be alone.]

18. When it's cold outside hold her close
[You want her to be happy & she's happy inyour arms]

19. Draw on or rub her back as she is tryin to rest or sleep
[This just feels good HAHA!]

{not with a pen you idiot, with your finger}

( @_@ so sweet ... but its better to be done from you and not by looking at this article )

nineth day

2006-06-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

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哈哈。。这是他进兵的第九天了，还有五天他就会回来了。
在没有他的每天，我都让自己忙。。朋友叫我出去我就会陪她们，或是在家烤烤肉，庆祝朋友的生日，去看看爱情电影，到海边看海，吃吃烤肉。。说真的还满充实的。不会有时间可以胡思乱想。。哈哈。。每到晚上九点到十点，我会把时间空出来等他给我的电话。。

之后我的思绪才会开始发达。。想一些我跟他没解决的问题。。
有人告诉我。。如果你要他渐渐的忘了他以前的爱人，你就不要一直在他耳边提到那个人的名字，但我会三不五十的问他关于那个女人的事。。因为现在我有替他检查他的HOTMAIL ，所以有些MSG他我会跟他报告。。真的是烂好人。。我竟然告诉他那个女人有寄东西给他，又给他机会想起她，不是吗？唉。。为什么我就是不会学坏点，就把那个MSG除掉，他就什么都不知道。。

只是我懂有些事是永远都丢不掉的。。而我不会收秘密的人，所以我是注定要让自己痛苦。。。。

他的EMAIL ADDRESS 也是我的自命伤的东西。。一看到 AIKAWALUVHM@HOTMAIL 我心里就酸酸的，为什么跟我在一起这么久他还是不换？我不是HM，我是龙官玉，要是爱我的话，请尊重我好吗？你不是那种会对世界宣告你爱谁的人，为什么，为了她，你可以自己加进那个名字呢？我问过你“可以改吗？” 你却一拖再托，说麻烦，说没空，真的看了，让我好心痛。。

树荣

在兵营里的你，到底心里在想着谁？是我还是你EMAIL上的她。。每天打给我的你，对我嘘寒问暖的你，是不是真的想我呢？我好想就这样相信你的话。。让我确定我等的人是爱我的，可以吗？。。

不在你身边的日子，我想的好多好多。。
不知道我们的路哪里是尽头，哪里开始过。。
哪有我们走过的痕迹，哪些话你说的是真的。。
哪天我会从这个梦醒过来，而我生命里会剩下什么。。
有你
还是我自己。
我可以永远在你身边给你等候。
我只希望的是我们都不要有遗憾。
你心里的最亮的星星在那里。。
是现在我在你墙壁上贴的那个，还是在你记忆里的那一颗。。

真不懂爱情。。

我。。的心如此无力。。

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dear & i before we reach tekong~*

him & i in his living room~* i like my black nails

can see my necklance ma?~* dear bought for me the ring too~*

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不牵我手的你，其实让我独立成长

不常对我笑的你，让我永远知道要珍惜
不曾说过爱我的你，让我懂的聆听你心里的声音
不曾带我去散步的你，让我明白有你陪那里都是甜蜜
不会从我背后拥抱的你，其实只要有你的地方都是温暖的
不会在我面前掉眼泪的你，让我要永远保护你永远都不让你哭
不会突然想我时打给我的你，让我省钱因为我的电话费一定会很贵
不敢在人多的地方吻我的你，其实要把这个礼物在我们俩人时才送我
不常赴约的你，因你懂我发脾气，还是会原谅你，因为我是真的爱你的
就是这样的你，我才愿意做你的SUPERWOMAN 。。。无条件的为你等著

november

2006-06-05T18:30:00.000-07:00

I look thru my previous blogs..and i found this sweet thoughts i had for HIM quite few months ago at november at that time we were really sweet ..arent we?

sweet november

loves his understandings, his compassion towards me, his promises, his sweet nothings, his arm over me, his voice when he sings, when he calls my name, love the way he turn around when i call him, love his hands holding mine, love how he grumble when i say he's fat, love how he massages me n always makes me tickle, love whatever i say he says i'm crazy ( this shows his the one who's more crazy as he loves someone who's crazy ^^), love how he hugs me when i buy lunch, love it when i get angry he used his pointed mostache n rub it on my shoulder, just love his sweet n silent whisper in my ears which makes me melts totally, love the days when he calls and talks to me, love all the time he spent with me than his games, love how he is afraid that i get upset , love how i'm the one he thinks of, n love his goodnite kisses, n i love the way....
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....
....
....
he loves me
......

爱,无力

2006-06-04T22:50:00.000-07:00

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潘嘉丽 - 爱,无力

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚
我只想对着夜空轻轻的呼吸
问自己最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中翻箱倒柜
寻找记忆
有一种爱它曾经住在我心里陪伴
我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力
其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴落在手心

-我会好好的-

2006-06-04T01:39:00.000-07:00

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-我会好好的-

我会好好的，花还香香的。

时间一直去，回忆真美丽。

我是想着你，一直想着你。

你在我心底变成了秘密。

不要说你爱我、你想我，

如果你的心里没有这么做。

只是勉强的敷衍我，

我知道了会很难受。

我要你默默走、不回头，

我会清楚明白你要的是什么。

无须勉强的安慰我，说奇怪的理由。

到现在还是深深的，

深深的爱着你。

是爱情的、友情的都可以。

那是我心中的幸福，

我知道它苦苦的。

要给你远方的祝福，

我知道它苦苦的。

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这几天我又听起这首歌。。爱情不是勉强的来的。。有时看透了我们只是希望我们相信的可以是真的。。但事实上有些东西像爱情是不能完全让我们相信的。。我们希望跟情人可以永远永远，只要是爱人说的都是真的，你会好不由于的深信每一字每一句。。因为他是你爱的人，你不听他还能听谁呢，对吧。除非你遇到对的人才能够这样。。

人总是要失去了才会要珍惜。。从古到现在还是没变。。人若是能天天在你身边陪着你，你一叫就到，有什么事她一定在背后给予支持，无论如何她会一直不屈不挠的爱着你。。你会慢慢的不经意的把她当成理所当然，把她摆在那边想理她就是你，不想理她，也是你。。只在乎那些自己想做的事，渐渐忘了她的存在。。到一天她不再在你身边爱你了，你才后悔为何不凑出时间来陪她，跟她一起做她喜欢的东西。。等到现在想为她付出反而都太晚了。。因为她累了。。这时你才发生你多么多么希望能好好的爱她。。但都找不到以前的感觉了。。

有些女人就是会这样的付出。。说她的是笨？还是始终如一？但会选择让自己离开的始终是聪明的。。至少她不再宠那个不懂得珍惜她的男人。。虽然自己还是很爱很爱他的。。

我会选择根本都没有，因为有时回忆只会让现在更痛苦。。

2006-06-03T08:35:00.000-07:00

On June 1st was our 14th month anniversary
we went out for movie X-men
He bring me to Yishun for our anniversary dinner at his mum's working place and i watched him finshed or "un-finsh" food as i din have the appetite at that time
Time passes very fast and my aching legs were still in pain because of the Nafa test the day before
Simple and sweet ``nothing more to ask from just that for the past three days when i'm with him (almost 24hours ) he din wish us "Happy anniversay" and say the sweet sweet things but still he gave goodnite kiss
That should be enough right ? Woman are so ...troublesome~~ hoho~

Anyway today i held this small BBq outside my house for my dad's upcoming d'dae And as thought only two good friends Suling and Yali!!!came over and that was fun and Fun HAHAHA the food we had was fabulous! NEVer had a gathering so sweet and loving watching the moon abOVE us while we ate what was cooked by my sweet parents heeeee
i like the wind..if only i can have it everynight

Hope in this new month i can learn to make more friends and learn to be more independent by myself while i keep my pampered life!! hohoho!

``miss YoNg forever``

假装 - 蔡依林

2006-05-31T07:18:00.000-07:00

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我在一个男生的MSN NICK 看到了这首歌的CHORUS 。。不知道是否他在想着现在他的不是很肯定的恋情还是以前的那些年少轻狂的初恋回忆。。有些事还是假装看不到比较好。。假装那从没被发现过。。假装他永远只是你的。。这样爱一个人会比较轻松。。。

-假装 : 蔡依林-

呼吸著一种孤独的味道　

　心跳在你沉默以後慢慢的被淡忘掉　　

我笑了笑　反正你看不到　

　我要的幸福　遗落在你怀抱　

　当爱失了焦　那些最初的美好　

　早被你搁在一角　

　街上拥挤人潮　走著看著都是摧眠符号

　　记忆停不了　穿过读你的心跳　　

穿过想你的味道　我只想不被打扰　

　假装多好　我只要　只想要　再拥有一秒　

　去相信你的拥抱　一直会让我依靠　　

继续等待　还心甘情愿的不想逃　

　当爱失了焦　那些最初的美好　

　早被你搁在一角　

　街上拥挤人潮　走著看著都是摧眠符号　

　记忆停不了　穿过读你的心跳　

　穿过想你的味道　我只想不被打扰　　

假装多好　我只要　只想要　再拥有一秒　

　去相信你的拥抱　一直会让我依靠　　

继续等待　心甘情愿不想逃　

　假装多好　依然是　依然是

　暧昧的tone调　

　一个人无理取闹　两人世界的煎熬

　　我被自己困在自己设下的圈套　

　像是驼鸟　相信时间是唯一解药　

　视而不见　傻到了无可救药　　

其实早明了　你的爱已随风飘　　

想要找　再也找不到　

　假装多好　我只要　只想要　再拥有一秒

　　去相信你的拥抱　一直会让我依靠　

　继续等待　还心甘情愿的不想逃　　

假装多好　依然是　依然是　暧昧的tone调　

　一个人无理取闹　两人世界的煎熬　　

我被自己困在自己设下的圈套　　

假装自己　已解开冰冷的手铐

sleepin in class

2006-05-29T18:23:00.000-07:00

#__#

ho~

its been a long long long time i came in here..

hahaha~

guess all the spider web all spinning around @_@ hanging at the corner of the website le~

This is our week7 of our semester in skool. And none of the lesson really interested me.

Yes.

Has been snoring in class and was taken down on Anan's camera phone.. @_@terrible~

And Yes .

i live up to my name.

i looked like a pig (>_<)

oh gosh~ but well its her choice~ -_- cant force her to take it off..wuu

Next week-->

sATUrdae!

my dearest will be going to army soon =.=

Most horrible thing happen to me now..

cant see his face face and feel his warm warm hands le

just pray army wont be too tough for his dedicated body hee~

i need to give myself a break soon~mus be independent

though i'll never do what i say ahhaha

These few days i'm really having bad moods

Thank goodness he's still there for me to holdddd~

Things has been starting to be difficult for me , in life, in school and in family.

Really wish for world peace *_*

o please ! dont make me sleep in class again =.=

2006-05-04T04:37:00.000-07:00

My dear went for his second job as an librarian at one of a hougang secondary school, we waited for half and hour for a taxi to arrive to send to school first then him to work.. I'm glad for him for really getting up to go and earn money before army at least he isn't at home everyday doing nothing .. my boy growing up le oh..

Upon reaching school i went to meet my classmates...but seeing some of them having bad mood really depressed my whole day mood too..why people come to school to make others unhappy ? dont understand why you just cant keep your emotions to yourself when i havent done anythin to disturb any of ur unrest Moodiness...

Thank goodness .. after having my lunch i went for lesson i was feeling much better... Now i realise that lesson in third year is realli very tough..i kinda cant really absorb everything le -.- ... want rest ar...hope i can get stronger everyday and more happy everyday without having anyone around affecting me..also hope everyday everyone happy too la...

after school my dear told me he very tired haha...first day sure complain one.. but at least can see he working real hard oh~jiayo my dear...but one thing kinda made me rather upset... but its not about blaming anyone... just that i told him i dont have enough $$ to eat... he just replied me said next time no money ask from him la... and ended the concern.. i was HOPing he would say ... "come i bring you go eat " I will be more glad though i wont really want him to eat with me.. just hope he can do something and not say " next time.."...

Anyway.. i understand that my dear was really exhausted by the end of day...i know librarian's job isn't easy so after work of course wont have the strength to bring this spoiled brat to go makan ba and can see he got try to change lots for me le..i shouldn't be asking for more le ba.. i so fat now should be on diet to keep my fats from growing more ... ha ha.. hope his work less less but earn lots lots... must jiayo.. i'll support support u.. definately giv u alots of sayang during weekend .. if i do see u... so

jiayo lim chew yong ~

anyway i'm home le.. if u do see this post..

2-5-06

2006-05-02T07:36:00.000-07:00

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街灯绊住我眼前

下一步拉长的影子

嘲弄的回顾

电话亭仍留着你的话

一句话掉一滴泪

今晚的我会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪

原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语

我不懂得如何更爱你

影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离

原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你

原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己

你收的干净

我也会不留一点痕迹

说故事也要像是真的

可是别触动那些回忆

今夜你说了最后一句

一句话掉一滴泪

看来今晚的我很难入睡

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有人告诉我。。人是一个很会忍耐的一个动物。。

但有一天，人还是会有忍不住的时候。那天的来临似天雷地动，火山爆发的时候。到时再求神，或是投向恶魔的怀抱，都不会有东西可以令时间倒转。

我从小，一直以来是一个人跟自己玩的，跟别的小孩不同是我都是一个自己。。每到新的保姆家，妈妈都会告诉我，不管人家再这么不对，我都不可以跟人家发脾气。。要忍下来，因为难得有人可以在父母工作时照顾我。。我要感激人家。。所以无论做什么，被别人的小孩欺负，或是无缘无故给保姆骂或打，我都得忍下来。。而这以在我心中以经根深蒂固了。。幼小的我，就必须看别人家的小孩来过每一天。。长期的看人家的脸色才不会被欺负。。不管有多不愿意，我都不能出声。。。

有一次，我不小心靠近保姆的孩子的衣柜，被她们打一巴掌，说我不可以乱碰她的家的东西，过后告诉我妈妈说我欺负她们家小孩，妈妈知道我是不会打别人的，但因为难道有人可以做我的保姆，因此向那家人道歉，说是我不好。。那时，因为还小，除了哭还是哭。。没想那么多。。回到家妈妈又跟我说没办法，虽然我没错但我还是要忍耐。。

所以从这么小，大概有记忆里，我就是白天寄人篱下的度过了我的童年。。因此也习惯不会表现自己情绪，什么不快乐都是埋在心里面。。但渐渐当我认识的人越多，也开始会谈恋爱，交朋友，我吞下的东西也越南来越多。。非常不懂得表达自己的心情。。一只搞出很多不愉快的事发生。。就是因为没人知道我是否真的快乐还是生气。。所以交不到知心的好朋友，而男朋友也每次会被我的脾气而弄的晕头转向。。

我的这种性格让我自己很苦恼。。有时真的好伤心的时候，会把自己以世隔绝，暗自里哭泣。。就连应该要很快乐的男朋友，我也把他气的好累。。真的好辛苦好辛苦。。

但没有人会理解我心里的难受。。我不希望有人讨厌我，但在忍别人的时候，我自己又不甘愿。。好难好难说出我心里真正想说的话。。

好累好累。。
有谁能谅解我

1year1mth

2006-05-01T18:18:00.000-07:00

. 1st May 2006 .

13th month -- > Our 1 year 1 month ~

The very first moment in the morning i got a msg from dear.. "GOOd afternoon my dear.. want to come to my house first? " he gave me a sweet greeting while i was preparing my best outfit for the special day. I wore a red and white strip top and put on the thickest eye leasher. I had my most perfumed shower with the most best smell soup.. just for him alone.. He said we have to go over to play majong with his mum then we will go for a movie.. i was excited~ it has been a long time since we have the time to go for a moVIE~ i want to watch DAISY~ WU..that guy from the movie " a moment to remember" was in it~! hee.. such a GOOda morning wo~

The moment i reached his area, dear bought me for lunch~ the sky starts to turn alittle dark.. wind was blowing hard.. i sensed that something wont be going too smoothly for me.. Dear said today.. his brother and the girlfriend is also having their anniversary ..its their 5th month~~ hoho ..so conicidence hor~ haha then dear told me that one of his good friend had his most bad day ~ which i cannot say :( ..very upset for him though... but i just kept silent.. dont want to affect our mood... and he said that because his brother will be home..so we will have to spent the whole day to play majong with his mum... .... haix... well... our movie gone again. Didnt really seem veri glad about that..coz he had promise me a few times that he will bring me out...but it always end up in majong session... i know he is veri "xiao shun" so... today have to " pei her" ta ..

Today bad bad day... i kept losing ..losing.. his brother was so li hai today.. haix...kinda regret not going for the Sentosa my classmates organised.. got asked him before whether he can go with me.. then he said " not really fun there..."... i think maybe he shy ba.. hoping that he will give me a better reply.. but not a word the whole day about going... -.- well..sorri..

When its close to six plus, his sad friend msged him to go for dinner... then i was left at the table with his family.. playing majong.. hope dear could stay by me..i needed him to be by my side... but i know his friend need him at the same time.. so i hold my words .. just let him go out.. while i was losing quite alot and very hungry hhaha...stupid me hor~ ~_~ always like that..what to do..who call he is my dear... haix haha..

Nearly eight plus he bought food back..by then i starved till no feeling le..so decided i dont wanna eat le... and was real sorry that when my mum msged me i didnt hear it.. kanna scolding when i got back.. haha.. then they went to hougang to find another friend while i was sent home alone on the cab after they got off..

anyway till the end though i didnt really get him to myself on our special day.. but was bliss at least he still with me ba.. days are hard to made with perfection.. sometimes just hav to make do with what left with me.. thats also a treasure ... movie next time ba..

In this world i know things may not be fair for everyone...but really hope i can still have alittle sunshine .. on my face when nothing is left foe me~

##Sweet 1year1mth ##

2006-04-28T08:00:00.000-07:00

Today ar.. i found this Mv very very sweet.. ha ha .. everyday find sweet mv.. hope no one see till bored.. lol.. David tao writes lyrics using very simple to understand words and yet it can say alot things in those understandable sentences .. life should be this way.. dont make things complicated and you will be happy.. dont be too calculative and always bear gudges in your heart then you will see the sun shine~ well i'm consistently reminding myself.. however you know la.. human got mood mood one... will always forget all these advises... will keep forgeting to remember that i'm already very lucky and loved.. as i grow older by each day..theres a tendency to forget what is important to me.. i always see myself as someone not good enough.. but simply couldn't see that people out there are also not as good either..

i wan to take a rest or break from the crowd.. really tired to entertain people everyday.. and not very interested to even talk to those who love me.. coz i find faults in everything i see on me and they double my search.. by doing things to point out i not good enough..

when can i just let go of everything.. school..family .. friends..work and etc ..to go to somewhere where no one knows me and i live my life alone... i wan to be in peace......

so tired..

-jus love you-

anyway this afternoon after school i went to Novena to see my Darling.. had a short lunch with him and kai nen at Kfc.. He ordered my set for me while i stand beside him ... like this kind of him.. so pamper of me.. even though is just a simple order but i felt that i can rely on him .. while on another side i doubt whether i should trust my heart.. or should i listen to my rational side... I had been thinking of giving up everything and left all behind but it is not a choice for me to made..there are so many things to consider before making that decision... when i do take the step there always be something to prevent me from stepping even further...does this mean it's meant to be? or i'm thinking too much.. @_@ ho..... going insane le..

how i wish i can just go back to the time where moments are just sweet and simple for me..where in my mind theres onli him and me and nothing else... and i dont have to have so many problems to muse about and that i can just stay right in the arms of my darling .. who i love and who love me... truely love me..

i need rest ....

who will be there...

2006-04-27T06:44:00.000-07:00

today came home early ...suddenly remember one of the movie i love best.. actually can also be my favourite movie ba.. hmm.. very close to what many couples are...very sweet and touching... and really cry over it the time i watch it.. dont know anyone still remember or not..

A moment to remember...

this guy really look like my darling...the way he act in front of the one he love.. very sweet in small wways.. very very sweet lei.. got a small clip here.. enjoy...song veri nice also.. ha ha..wish me and dear can be like them.. happy always..

a lovely day... in the morning.. i turn around and the one i love is right beside me ..i felt his face so near to mine.. thats the best present for the start of a new day.. and when i thought he wouldn't accompanied me to school.. he actually bring me all the way ..first time ..too touched to say a word.. a simple bliss.. i cant ask for more.. he's too good to be true.. my everything..

love you.

2006-04-24T08:43:00.000-07:00

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-you were my superwoman -

Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡但我不曾如此清醒
我的早餐准备了你爱吃的东西
这次换我等一杯咖啡的香味叫醒
想要找回每天早晨对我微笑着的你
还能够做些什么代替我的歉意
总是望着我小心翼翼顺著我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然让你精疲力尽
you are my super women oh~~
安静地在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔
but i am only human en~~
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍地犯了错不能失去你
oh baby~~
try to make it all yes for me
月光下紧紧靠著彼此只求夜深一点
有多久没有好好看你只是认定了我
无论在什么时候回头都有你的笑容
是我忽略了你也会有想要哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最后一次机会
换我等待换我等待不要这么拒绝
you are my super women
安静地在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔
but i am only human
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍地犯了错不能失去你
oh baby~~是我把爱想的太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心以为一个super woman 没有人能代替
不能想象更不能原谅这一段爱发生
you are my super women
安静地在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔
but i am only human (可是我只是一个只是一个人)
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍地犯了错不能失去你
you are my super women
安静地在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔
but i am only human
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍地犯了错不能失去你
you are my super women
but i am only human
我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍地犯了错不能失去你

need to work hard to be pretty too!!

第一個清晨

2006-04-13T07:11:00.000-07:00

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王力宏第一個清晨MV..

很简单，又满甜蜜的。。能和爱人一起醒来的感觉真的好奇妙。。又感动。
不知他还记不记得我们第一天就睡在一起。。因为那时我们一起参加了社团的camp，然后又被派到同一组。。因此才认识的。。相识的过程还满有缘的。。不知不觉。。跟他认识快俩年半了。。时间过的好快。。好快。。非常珍惜我们在一起的日子。。相信我们永远都会是这样。。快乐。。爱对方。。因为我会。。一直陪在他身边的。。

每个醒来的清晨永远都像是我们第一个清晨。。因为有他在什么都变成第一次了。。

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i watched with my good good friend...GOH yaLi..veri touching...left a tear at the last scene when maya came alive.. @@ ... sniffsniff..i miss furry...

2006-04-11T08:45:00.000-07:00

Recently as those who do read my blog will know he and i had passed our first year together.. finally these long road has started to bear its fruit ..though we didnt spent our moment together .. but he had thought of me and indeed bought me a necklance... really sweet of him to do that.. i know its rather expensive.. but had to accept it as i'm really touched by his sincerelty..as for me i only gave him a small card i specially bought from taiwan.. it wrote i love you in the front and a heart as the background.. @_@ very sweet also...everything was so fine..

But i dont know why , some say before every storm there will be fine period of calm and tranquillity.. i fear it.. i'm now keeping so many things in my heart that i don't dare to speak of.. as i fear i may lose everything i have. I know as time goes by.. in relationship some people will pass tests after tests, but somehow its wearing me out and i really doubt i can cling on anymore... i fear my storm will come soon..

In the past.. i have him.. to tell about the moody feelings i had for the day.. but you know .. when two people get together so close.. there's a point where there will be things that are forbidden to talk about.. you cant tell him about your saddness and anguishness and tiredness as you know all this are the issue that may cause quarrels or worries.. its so hard to balance or chose of which to share with.. And when problems come, both of you will have different ways to solve it.. so discussions are not recommended..

Last time as we have our own lifes so you wouldn't really go and dig out their past or present ; like what are they doing now? who are they talking with? .. peace was kept real well .. and you wont have to place too much pressure on yourself to worry for them..

Now.. having a boyfriend.. you will have to think how your working timetable have to be plan so that you will have enough time to see each other.. (normally is my part doing it ) Or whether we should excuse ourselves from work just to go over to see him.. And you will have to remind him to eat his meals while forgetting your own .. and bathtime too yes.. this is important.. and worry Whether he's been flirting around or contacting any past gfs.. will he think of you thru his busy hours of games.. or is he having a good day or not.. if yes that will be perfect if not.. how will you have to comfort him.. all these can really tired one out.. but will always be continue doing till the end..

i'm someone who's simple or maybe complicated... i believe in true love and in the one who i love.. so therefore maybe thats why i expect the same.. i detest liers and betrayal ( a bit like scopion hor) .. all i want is someone to treat me the same way i do to them ( like i dont go out with opposite sex friends ).. i may have my tempers but is only for a moment. Unless you really go over my limit..i need sweet nothings i need love and care i mean truely concerns.. and all i need is someone to treat as if they will lose me the next day.. i'm someone who often see romance and forget about the world outside me.. thus he will be the only one i see.. i wont go around talking to guys or making friends even.. and i total in need of attention .. maybe thats why after knowing me haha will be scare of my possesive..
i do get insecure at certain moments too.. not confident of myself ba..

At normal times i may be veri indecisive with matters but beware.. when i do decide somethings.. as in relationship issue such as not going back to the old green grass , the decision will stand forever.. thats me.. :) but come to think of all my scary points.. do i earn alll those good or expectations i have? haha... i'll improve too..

after a year with him. i found all some things just wont change.. and i am numb of some things i think as gf or bf should avoid but he still doing it.. and i jus wont get the courage to talk about it.. may crying release my problems everytime a tear fall..

2006-04-03T02:03:00.000-07:00

haha

ITS OUR ONE YEAR AND 2 ND DAY ohhh!!!!! ^_^ xin fu de xiao liang ko~~
but really sad sad .. he not with me ...^^ i having fun in taiwan ~~ eat and sleep and shop ~ omg so shiok~ haha thats the life i hoping to get everyday ~_~ shao nai nai~~ hope my dear next time can give me this kind of life together @_@ wuuu~~ well being here let me realise food can really let me forget about romance!!!! heihei~ however at night then will start to miss him la.. $_$ hee.. going back on thURSDAY LO!!!! bought alot things ... socks and clothes and stationary!!! and some special things for my dear too ^^ lala

MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSShim oh!

1year lo!!!

superwoman

2006-03-26T06:28:00.000-08:00

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没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿。。。

2006-03-23T07:23:00.000-08:00

到数八天~

亲爱的，你怎么不在我身边。。。

2006-03-14T23:58:00.000-08:00

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好久好久没写喽！会有人想我吗？最近我在看台湾的偶像剧“恶作剧之吻”真好看。。男女主角很像我跟我的林先生噢！一个女生爱接近的孤僻沉默男，一个什么都不会做的痴情女！太像我们啦！我的爱情要自己争夺！要加油加油加油！才可以梦想成真！哈哈哈！我会排除万难，把他周围的臭女生给杀杀杀！哈哈。。就可以靠近我的要的他！嘿嘿。。希望他可以完全属于我而已啊。。神噢。。。为我加油吧。。

遇到对的人是个缘分~~~~
啊哟。。肚子又痛了。。如果他在这就好了。。！！亲爱的，你怎么不在我身边。。。

11mths!!

2006-03-01T06:39:00.000-08:00

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今天是考试的最后一天~ 我终于读完二年级了！！！

不错。。我早上还起得来~只是赖一下床，但不知道为什么还是没时间完全的温习要考的东西~我时间观念要改进！！虽然提醒自己那么多次还是不能做到~所以需要像我男朋友那种罗说的才能让我遵守时间~ 我到考场时突然想大便！哇~非常讨厌人~为什么要在现在要大便啊！没办法~ 我只好忍着进去因为没时间了~我看到我的考卷第一到头脑的是“我快要忍不住了！-__-”然后过后我只记得 “ 我要大便！”“ 我要大便！”“ 我要大便！”哈哈。。终于我把它做完但不是每一题都有把握。。我就不管我冲去上厕所！哈哈。。我快乐的把解放！还有更快乐的是我今天跟他见面！

因为今天是我们的十一的月！想想还有一个月我们就一年勒！！好幸福噢！虽然我不是他最久的，但他确是跟我最久的情人。。他是我最爱，最需要，也是我从不曾想离开的人。。哈哈。。这样说虽然肉麻但真是我心里的话吧。有时要对他甜点。。希望他知道。。我非常满足我所拥有的，虽然有时会逗逗嘴，意见不合，但我一冷静想想，第一个想见的人就是他了。。嘴巴说女朋友不能疼的。。但他每一个行动就表现他有多管心我。。由其他不能送我回家，他一定不吝啬的给我钱搭车回家即使自己不够花~这点让我非常的感动噢！我们也知道以后的日子不会像以前这么好了，因为他要当兵了~真的会好想好想他~现在就是了。。@@

爱你~ 亲爱的！十一月快乐噢！永远都保持这样吧。。

anyway need to say i watched movie with You know who~_~haha our miss mushroom~ wanted to watch the "underworld" but someone lo~ didnt bring her IC!!-.- in the end we decided to take the "Big mama's house" haha jus wan to say we had fun ^_^ hei hei~ oh ya~ both of us again saw that charmaine and bf -.- dunno why always see them..why we so fated ar ~ hai yo~yo~

爱不是只是说说而已

2006-02-25T04:26:00.000-08:00

爱不是只是说说而已。。你坐着自己想你要做什么但都不起身开始的话。。用想的有什么用。。爱一个人不只会说也要做。这样才能够争夺你要的东西。“我就是懒啦！”其实是看你要不要做。。不想付出时说自己懒就是最好的理由。。因为大家知道你懒所以也不会都说什么，谁要跟懒人多罗说啊？浪费时间不是吗？但在一个感情只要一方面付出那总有一天，不付出的那个人会失去他拥有的一切。不会有不劳而获的事的。。

就像要是你每次要你的另外一半去找你，而你在家等他来。。我可以保证无论多远多近。。他/她还是会累的。。或是有人对他/她好一点。。做你做不到的体贴。。哈哈。。那你就完蛋，你的懒惰会让你失去对你勤劳的那个人。。
你不肯能只用一个手来拍手吧？一定是要两个手对吧？爱情也是一样，你不曾看过一个人跟自己谈恋爱的吧？所以必须学如何对代你爱的人；比如你希望他能每天看到你时给你一个拥抱，你可以开始这习惯，不要等别人先做。

付出是一个学文。。也是一个爱的表现。不要把它当做一个负担。当你能看到那个你爱的人时好好珍惜你可以为他做东西，付出的时候吧。。不要失去了才想付出，到那时候就会太晚了。。

我觉得要好好想一个人。。

2006-02-23T08:52:00.000-08:00

我觉得要好好想一个人。。
就是一天不理他。。
然后找你和他说过的话在网上的history 。。
看看你跟他拍过的videos。。和回忆满满的照片。。
然后好好的坐下来。。感受以前的快乐。。我觉得是不错过时间的方法。。
一来你不会去烦到对方。。又可以让他好好想想你。。
不错吧。。

你会发现为何平时要争吵呢？为何不想想当初你们俩是多爱着对方。。逗逗嘴是要有限度的。。不可以太多不然会把甜密覆盖了。。最重要的是自己看到对方是快快乐乐的。。对方才能跟你也是快乐的。。要多多回忆以前快乐，把不愉快的给抛开。。而最重要的是要全心全一的爱一个人。。别一脚踏两船。。否则到最后船翻了。。两个都得不到。。

每次听到情人会说“你不相信我！”。。当你说这句话时请想想是否自己真的做的正。。没隐藏秘密，不然对方不信你时，你最好别怪别人不信你。。没自信是不好的。。太自信也是不好。。有些事不可以完全靠自己的自信来过关。因为人天明难为。。就像一些男生很自信他的什么都听他的乖乖女朋友会永远在他身边。。所以会不知觉的把她摆在那里，想理就理不想理就不理。未来的事没人知。。但通长这种到最后那个女生不会一直永远留在他身边的。。这例子每个人看太多。。但有些人。。无论是女的男的都不可以太大意。。没人很永远陪在你身边如果你没那个心去付出的。。

爱是要两方面去付出不然到最后你只会一个人过下半辈子。。

好好爱护你身边的人吧。。

把爱当做你会随时失去它的重要东西。。

爱要像放风筝。。有放有拉。。才能一直的让它飞翔着。。

waiting for u

2006-02-22T05:58:00.001-08:00

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等待一个人。。会不会很痛？

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我说啊。。
人真的要好好每天想想一天要怎么过。。
一天过一天是好的。。这样轻松自在。。但如果没把珍惜放在心里，那就是浪费了这一天。明天不是每天都会来的。。假如你只有剩一天可以活，你会想跟谁在一起呢？家人，朋友还是你爱人呢？要是给我选我不知道。。因为家人只有妈妈爸爸。。他们应该会选对方，这就是为何当除他们要在一起的理由---- 得不到的爱。尤其是这种远距离的爱情才会让对方好好的抓近。。才会珍惜每一秒的时间。就像现在的有很多情人刚开始一有空就每天见，到了最后不会是因为想对方而见面，反而会变成是一个习惯。这就不会是快乐的爱情了。

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我不是说每天见不好，我也是大概会每天见到我的男朋友，但我发现当一方不会珍惜那一天的你，那干嘛要见啊？只会让两方不愉快不是吗？哈哈。。这些话要是听在那些不能每天见面的情人耳里应该会气死吧？他们会觉得可以见就好，还嫌东嫌西，这就是爱吗？所以能见面就见吧。。否则以后要真的好好珍惜时就来不及了。。对吧？
在这个人的身边。。我学会一件东西。。最好不要把希望寄托在男人身上。
别把爱看的太好，因为这就是自讨苦吃。。别以为他对你好，他就是爱你的。。
女人啊。。找对的男人依靠吧。。如果他只会用说的，有什么用，对吧？只会说不会做，那每个人都会，不是吗？那干嘛在一起。。

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以前我还没跟他在一起时。。我们的时间是又不常有但又充实的。
他会是每晚睡觉前跟我聊天的人。。永远都不会有不愉快的一天。。但虽然是这样，我们却只是朋友。。我们心里想的人并不是对方。。但是，我们一见面却会不顾一切的要让对方快乐。还记的我们会到 esplanade 去，看着夜景，听现场奏的音乐，谈谈心里的不愉快，和对方的不幸福的爱情。那时看着他，觉得为何人要失去了才知道珍惜呢？为何他不能跟他爱的人在一起呢？也许是活该吧？或是有缘没份？

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那时的我们就是很好的知己，在对方孤独时才来安慰的朋友。他的体贴远远比我那时交往的那个人还多，虽然他话不多但我看的出，他的心肠真的是很好的人，非常关心朋友。肯能只有朋友的才能够得到他的这些体贴吧？对女朋友会不会是一样呢？那时的我不知道。。也不是很在乎所以才能很快乐。。不要求他什么。。那种简单的快乐我还满怀念。。也比较喜欢那时的他。。虽然那时他还有另外一个人在他的心里。。挥之不去。。我还是会照他来依靠。

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但人们一旦有了爱情。。就会变的。你就会慢慢的把一切有的当成应该了。。不止他，我也是。。哈哈。。虽然知道会这样还是不习惯。。人生下来如果不懂得要求东西那不就好。。爱情如果没来，也许就不会有人分离。

现在的我，已经不会什么都跟他说，也不会把真实的心情让他知道，也不会有期望可以依靠他。。

因为我的角色一变。。不是什么都可以这么坦白了。他也不会像从前
那么会安慰我，因为我的快乐，不快乐一定是为了他。我失去一个可以什么都坦白的朋友。。但得到了每个人希望有的爱情，真不知道是幸还是不幸。

回到过去。。还是现在呢？

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天当做最后一天。。好好珍惜你的每个最后一天

2006-02-19T06:11:00.000-08:00

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为何爱个人这么难。。
叫他不要msg 我，还真的到现在一通电话都不打来。。
但他要我好好的把功课做好。。怎么能呢？

眼泪就不知不觉得流一天。。什么都做不了。。为什么会变这样。。

昨晚还好好的。。说今天会来见我。。因为他说他想见我。。
一大早，洗了澡，快乐的等他来。。但因为一通电话。。
我的希望完全破碎, 连敷衍都不给我。。让我真的好伤心。。
我没怨言。。只是好失望。。我在他心里就只是这样。。

眼泪一再滴，一再滴，心苦苦的。。
难道爱有很多种吗？我只知道今天的爱。。好痛。。

希望他能来擦干眼泪。。但流泪只会把他推的远远的。。
怎么办。。

好想他。。却不敢打给他。。怎么办。。

听到这首歌，让我好想他。。
虽夜还长。。但已经晚了。。不知道他在那。。

要一个人疼有这么难吗？。。。

哭多了。。泪对他说只是负担。。

好想他。。

-他去陪需要被人安慰的朋友。。

却让自己的女朋友变成需要被人安慰的人-

2006-02-18T08:38:00.000-08:00

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现在是晚上十二点。。了

。。看完“我叫金三顺” 。。
看到他们恋人都好爱好爱对方噢。突然很想很想他，应该是在他身边跟他看的, 但是。。今天我很早就回家，没陪在他身边看他和朋友玩电脑游戏。。直觉就觉得我必须回去，不想给他负担，让他可以好好专心玩他的游戏。快进兵了，要玩的时间也不多了。。就放他几天假吧。。还是不要一直黏着他好。。不然我会更想他。。哈。。我真是傻瓜。。也许该让他好好想想我的时候到了。。

睡不着。。心里好想他。。

真的一整天好想他。。

我真是个傻瓜。。^^ 吧。

想他又不敢打给他，这就是我给他的爱---- 自由。

你会不会听的到呢？
你会不会爱我像我一样爱着你？
对。。了
爱是不能做比较的。。但是。。
我好幸福噢。。
有你在我心里面。。你的一切一切。。
还有每天有你关心着我。。
我真的好幸福噢。。
可是。。

我还是很想你。。

亲爱的....

~ 豆浆离不开油条~

永远都戒不了你。。

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好想念你。。
在我们开始的时候的你。。
爱闻我香味的你。。
躺在我肩膀傻傻睡觉的你。。
送我回家后给的贴心拥抱的你。。
不管在那里都要我在你身边的你。。
为了逗我开心唱歌给我听的你。。
把在我生病时照顾的无微不至的你。。
在我睡不着时陪我在夜里看星星的你。。
当我闹脾气会第一个对我说对不起的你。。
不爱牵我手却爱搂着我走的你。。
喜欢看我笑的你。。
永远为我做什么给我加油的你。。
把最甜蜜，贴心，重要的都给我，的你。。

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2006-02-16T08:06:00.000-08:00

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我终于可以写写华语字了！哈哈。。真是一件值得快乐的事噢。。

这几个星期，我过得高潮跌起，有时心情非常糟，有时却又很快乐，不知是不是得了忧郁症还是精神病，但辛苦的是在我身边的家人，妈妈和‘他’。尤其是我的他，因为大多数，是他和我一起过时间。从早到晚他就一直在我视线内，起来看到的是他，累了睡觉前也是他哄我入眠。发脾气也是他要挨，我心情不好也是他在旁看我的脸色。。。幸亏有他我才不孤单，怎么说，要说对不起还是谢谢？哈，真是辛苦他了。。我的亲爱的你啊。没有他当我的出气桶，我不知到我会怎么办，那也就没人会在天塌下来时帮我顶了，也许我会过不了关吧。虽然，在一些时候，他确实不会安慰我，但他始终还是在我的耳边给我加油，我真是要好好珍惜对我好的他了。妈妈也是一样，嘴里不会说好话，但每天早上一定会寄简讯叮呤我好好加油~ 真幸福啊。哈哈哈。。现在可能心情还不错所以可以写这么感性的话，真怕下一秒我的心情会有大转变，老天啊，让我天天快乐，满足，不会在胡思乱想了，希望我不是真的得忧郁症吧。给我懂得怎么爱人的知识，让我好好，简简单单的过一天！

哈哈 ,在情人节那天。。他送我一个手机吊饰，是个蓝色的嘴巴中间还含的一个水晶，哈哈真想不通为何他买这给我。。而我在半个小时内，到bugis 买了一个跟我手上一模一样的手环(我们第一个月时他送给我的，上面刻我的名噢) 给他，我也为他刻了他的名，哈哈真是浪漫，现在我就不用在每个月编手换给他了，希望这能永远带在他手上噢！

那晚看到他在网上时跟他的同学说谢谢，还称赞她很贴心，因为她买巧克力给大家，我看到时有些失望因为他连一句谢谢都没跟我说，何况还说我贴心，唉，是不是因为他不喜欢我给的礼物呢？还是因为做了男女朋友，什么都变应该了？。。当时，我因胆怯，所以不敢问他，因此痛苦了整个晚上。但到了隔天我终于受不了！我很小声的问他到底喜不喜欢啊？还好他的答案是喜欢，让我终于放下那不平衡的心态。。哈哈，谈恋爱的人们啊，是否有过跟我一样的心情呢？对方的喜怒哀乐就是可以造成我们今天是否会快乐或悲伤。不信？就试试吧。。大家加油噢！

我也会加油的！

2006-02-09T21:51:00.000-08:00

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

2006-02-07T05:40:00.000-08:00

CUTE MAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!?
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By the time the Lord made woman, He was into his sixth day of working overtime.

An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" and the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands! No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish."

But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.

"But you have made her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.

The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!"

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,her loneliness, her grief and her pride."

The angel was impressed.

"You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy And laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
When they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel And cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about A birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, Yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss Can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
To show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

show this to all your women friends and relatives
To remind them just how amazing they are...

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this is my first time so exhausted from work i don't know why.. He gave his concerns wanting to order mac for me as i haven't eaten my dinner or lunch since morning..onli breakfast.. this is sweet i thought he would onli send msg to tell me to eat..eat and eat and not do anything..but i rejected him..lol is it stupid? or well.. i'm in aches.. jus now at my door steps i saw someone just for a moment i thought he really came over to bring me food..lol but it was someone else whom i dunno.. heh~ tml gonna be a wicked day..test ar.. haix..

2006-02-04T22:38:00.000-08:00

How to pharse it..
Bloody -h*ll Day haha.. sometimes i just prayed i don't have to face some things that will make me very trapped inside .. however i had the courage to face it..and i really hate lies, it just made me lose the whole trust i had for who so ever, who has that heart to say lies to me..

I was invited to His friend's birthday "chalet" gathering.. she had asked along many of her friends from seconday school which of those i saw before and heard bEfore.. and yet it still makes me nervous yet excited..

The night before " not something very nice " happened bet me and him.. so when i met up with him and his friends in the train i couldn't help but just don't wan to open my mouth and socialise with everyone.. i can see from the girls eyes they wanted to talk to me, so thinking i should at least be nice i kept smiling all the way... while he "entertain" them so well..can see he really does mix with girls, just make them laughing.. when i aren't that responsive to him other times no wonder he was so happy around them.

The night before i asked him whether we could go for a walk before meeting his friends.. just wanna calm things down and settle the problems but he had to host his friends so my request was politely turned down.. hmm.. so i decided to volunteer with him to accompany his friends to walk walk before we get to the chalet but he hope that i could stay at home to rest while him and kai will do the job.. somehow i got news that it was not so.. it was just him..and i kept silent about this. Coz i couldn't believe what he said wasn't the same as what happen..

I asked a friend.. some questions on his girlfriend..while he patiently answered me and i note down that i wasn't the abnormal person thinking about these things...

me: i ask u ar.. no matter how fat or ugly or thin or pretty a guy is ..and
he goes out with your girlfriend alone.. what will you think or say to her?

someone: tell her cannot go lo.. i dont care he is fat or thin, he is still a guy lo.. got guy near her i not happy le =<..

me: haha..so vice verse isit? hee

someone: ya..i hope so?

me: then..hor..if you wanted to go out with your girlfriend but she has to accompany her guy friend when they doesn't meet not so often , what will you think then?

someone: think that i not important than the friend lo..

me: @_@ really.. but that friend & your girlfriend rarely meet lei..still cannot go out one time mei?

someone: hmm... i don't know..but i will be very upset lo.. and think i not important le lo.. i can accompany her if she wants..

me:haha..okok...

haha..so you see.. girls and guys are the same..lol..
anyway.. we found the chalet successfully, and helped them with all the BBQ and stuff..one of his friend, jasmine was friendly she chatted with me along and we went for a stroll around the beach..i think i had misunderstood her for staring meanly at me last time in school.. i really need to mature my skills at not just looking things at surface only..:)

The main event for that day arrives.. His ex classmate/gf came with her boyfriend.. the moment i see her from far my legs just quickly brought me out of the chalet compound to the public toliet neat the beach.. and looking at the situation he followed me and we walked a long way back.. i told him i feel uneasy ... he knew what i was talking about..and said we could go back early if i wanted to.. but i know that he rarely sees them so i try to keep my those umeasy feeling down and replied them saying we can stay.. is alright for me.. i care for him so i think i have to be in his shoes too.. i cant be too selfish right...

We got back and..and... yes i smiled and she came over to talk to me.. -_-.. looking at her i found that ya indeed that scopion girls are quite attractive no wonder.......
Then... ar.. she gave me a slight shiver when she looked at me.. wuu.. i think i really had a fear with scopion girls but i can feel she was trying to be nice already so all the way i observed and kept silent.. for quite a while then, she starting walking towards me and broke the ice between us "hee.. you know who i am ma?"
".........." i was startled. So erm what am i supposed to reply? oh..haha So you are my boyfriend's ex. girlfriend and he cannot but forget you after so many years le bec you both were classmates and lovers for 3 years!? or oh..so you are that girl who everyone knew that your lover was my boyfriend?..OMG!!!!!! my devil inside me was burning..not that i hate her or what but i just don't like ex.s ..sorry ar.. and scopions...-.- they just have so many thoughts you never knew what they are actually thinking about.

" ..ha...ya..i know who you are.. ha..-.-" i said. And maintain my lovely fake smile..i dont' want to lose his face ..or if she did talked to him the next time she wont complain and say " your gf veri unfriendly lei " .

she: " so..you know who i am ar haha"
mee:" ya..i know"
she:" then what school are you from then?"
mee:"IT school ..ha"
she:" haha oh..then have you seen me before?"
mee:" ha...erm..ya..got.."
she:" heee...really..haha this is my first time seeing you eh "
mee:" haha ......... "

Rather Q and A situation hor? hmmm...ermm but... i rmber once in school i saw someone was indeed lookin at me..and ya..i think..i'm sure is her..^_^haha..well.. fun ar.. lol..my devil in me is growing from bad to worst..haix. -.- don't know why i would have all these thoughts in me.. -.- omg... i'm in such a torture..
By the way..thats was all .. i just ended our converstation by smiling..i couldn't find anything to ask or chat with her..really impolite of me..haix.. well.. fun part 2 gone..and for fun part 1 was.. HIm kept eating when she was around.. ( and her bf behind her with a very "dao" look) . I smirk at his reactions.. "wa..someone kept eating ar bec someone here is it " haha.. i will always remember how he react to it.. but i will never know.. was he really nervous about her or was he trying to keep away from her.. well well.. doesn't matter.. haix

HAHa.. FINALLY! CUT Cake and we got home.. and i just couldn't forget what happen the hours before.. while my eyes were stick to the tv..lol.. i have been thru a advanture in pasir ris park..haha..

.. i do really hate liers.. and now i know who not to trust and things will never be the same again... once a lier..forever be a mark in my heart saying " you are in my observation list le. "

Through many incidents in that small night..i realise sometimes things can changed a person.. and we can learned from lessons and mistakes to how to be brave and when no one is there to help you, you have to protect yourself . This is the cruelty of the world.

feb 3

2006-02-03T05:19:00.000-08:00

i had to admit that having someone who cares for themselves more than they care for you wil get you no where but just tired.. however we could do nothing and bury it down into our heart and comforting ourselves saying " its okay .. he will be better the next time.. " This is the famous line a woman in love will always say to herself...

Today .. i went to school real early in the morning i had a great night before even though i didn't win any money after a game of majong with his mum.. i was contented at least i got him with me.. i'm happy enough.. Because he was there...beside me and i can see him.. looking at how he lives his life in his home.. Just amazed by how many emotions and expression if you do look close..in my eyes he is always a naive child in need of lots of love and concerns.. He woke up the same time as me to walk me to school ..it was real touching to see how he pulled himself from his comfortable bed and drag his feet to wash his face.. i always keep it my heart.. crossing the road i quickly wrap around his arm to walk close to him.. its a natural feeling any couples would do..to get close..though i understand sometimes he prefers walking alone.. But i love feeling secured by his hands which he doesn't do much i just get up front , pleasing myself at least doing the least.. hook his hands ba..

We had dinner together looking thru windows and windows and in silent.. he just followed me around.. its so simple i feel contented by these alreadi.. so when he asked whether i still wan to go anywhere else i thought of his game.. i afraid he wont have the time left to play so i told him to go back.. and he didnt asked further so i jus kept silent too.. anyway i took pictures of him.. his cool face.. cold yet you know there's a warm heart burning inside..

you will only see if you look deep enough.. that there's nothing to ask for or afraid for.. the only person you need to fight and to rebate is yourself.. love others as much as you will love yourselves. Use your senses wisely.. feel with all your heart and ponder without having too much unhealthy thoughts that makes decision done with regrets..

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why is it always so hard to understand other people's good intention when they sincerely care for you... when a tinge of feeling of their happiness and sadness would change your bright clear sky to a clouds of grey.

Caring too much people will say they don't like that type of giving.. but is not these people should be scared that if there aren't any concerns which means we don't even give a damn about that particular person?

Accepting all faults slowing one by one, giving appreciations everytime sweet things are done.. all things were just done wasted, throw into the dustbins when someone says " i didn't see why whatever i do, you jus don't appreciate and yet give me face , and why cant you accept who i am? "

Frankly all that i have try to do..my best for the good for both.. wasn't at all satisified my other half... and yet i had complains saying i asked too simple of that person..and what i hope for, is either hard or too easy to accomplise or which is not all his kind of doing .. its a long story.. hard to understand ..and i don't understand why till now then i see how scary this person can be ..and how selfish someone can be in hurting you when they assumed you'd hurt them.

And i don't understand why i just care so much still..and love so deep even though i can be the one who will do whatso ever to get to where that person is no matter how far and get kicked back with a hit saying " i dont need your concerns.. ".

Yet..when i don't care so much , i was yelled back saying " i try so hard to please you, but you are still not satisified." .....

can anyone tell me what to do..

why i have to meet some one justt worst than my mum when she's angry.. just wont listen to other people's pledging and how low we bring our ego to, just not to show i am yelling at you though how mad we are..and enduring your spit at me . Is this a curse or is this a teaching to tell me i have to face reality.. no one will be good to you truely.. everyone is selfish.. so stop being nice le.. ruby.. people just get misunderstandings about you..how hurt and how pain you get hit by not weapons but by words from the one you loved. why didnt i get smashed while crossing the road when i was getting home.. or i just faint and not wake and leave without a trace .. i will try not to watch my way..maybe i might succeed..

Dont be too selfish in life.. dont think that whatever people do is not the way you like means wrong..and that you always do right.. i just love the face.. but not the way you speak of how you speak of me. Where i have tried my best to accept whoever you are..coz i love only one..in my heart.

Nothing hurts me more than you

stabbing me with your words ..

Though my tears can be dried some time later..

but i know the blood in my wound

will never halt if you still

want to pierce deep and hard

without any realisation that i'll be bled to death

by your own hands

that you loved...

2006-02-01T05:38:00.000-08:00

~~~~ A BIG TOASt to our TEN months ~~~~

thru all hardships(quarrels) and hAPPiness ( some more disagreements) we have come to our ten months! :) i'm so glad we made this far..thank god thank god and evryone around us who made this happen :) and especially him for loving me no lesser every seconds which i also love him more and more..( 2 more mths to one year @@ so fast ar)

The night before yesterday i had a long long talk on the phone with all our unpleasentness between each other and this discussion continued for two hours.. and at least we know what is actually going in our mind and we clear many doubts though it gave us tears and anguishment ..but still we care very much for each other..

today though i didnt actualli have dinner with him, which was planned last night, he was at my side when i played majong at his friends house... seeing him..jus fade away what made me upset in school..
From the horoscopes, saying that i will not get along quite well with friends .. so i have to beware..lo..and this is rather true i do noitce there are some people who really doesn't likes me.. dont know why whatever i do , i will affect some people lo.. haix.. well well.. i'm jus so sensitive and i just care so much that would really make my day....haix...real bad u koe..

anyway.. i'm really blissed to have such a caring guy with me.. though he sometimes maybe a wood to how to comfort his gf.. -.-.. love him still no matter what.. and i'll..be...always.. :)

- i cant get u out of my mind

you all i think of...

day and night-

2006-01-30T00:27:00.000-08:00

Today~ is the second day of the chinese new year ~
Lets have a review of last year's new year :

The first time i went over to his house to Bai nian, and first time saw his family whom i was just a friend .. didn't expect few months later our feelings developed from mere friends who go out together to something more MOre more..special.. He didnt ask me the usual question..That lovely night at april fool day, while we were waiting at the bus stop after he sent me home.. we were so tired from a date out..but still he stayed on and silently.. both of us waited for his bus to come.. If i didnt remember wrongly it was after midnight.. the first time, and without a sign .. he held my hands in his and came a cuddle so tight at that moment i was abit startled but deep down i knew we had an unique feeling going between us..

This was how we started..our story... i never ever expected whatever happen the following days or can i say every moment , every minute..and every seconds. He was my sunshine ~ my angel ~~ it was all so perfect that our school holidays came about and the next day i went over to his hOme the first time.. Everything was so new to me, his world and his home; was cosy and real comfortable..just like him. Our days were blessed i guess, everyday was so sweet, some moments i thought i was in my dreams.. yes.. he was the only sweetest person in my world..in my eyes nothing else but him.. he bought me happiness with such simplity.. couldn't stay any seconds away from him.. I just loved being by his side watching him and while he sleeps..and when he looks at me.. ^^

All went really smoothly for us...he goes anywhere would bring me along.. i believed who ever sees us knows how much in love we are.. and i feel being blessed by those around us .. our parents and friends..
Days passes by, he never throw his temper at me.. and pleased me at a all cost, brought all the sweet nothings into my hearing, just cant enough of him.. As months came rolling in, we got more familiar and close together, and we get use to all things , we tend to show our true self more and more... Like every couples.. there be small disagreements.. and more disappoval and misunderstandings... thats why we would show our *black black* face to each other...

Yesterday.. i as his girlfriend goes to bai nian agaIN!~ Many things were different now.. the sweetness back then was around .. when i was still a friend.. maybe being together we tend to expect things to happen and when it doesn't we will get upset about it.. in the Morning i got up real early, to prepare and headed to his house.. with all happiness and eagerness to see him... cause the night before he said " cant wait to see you tomorrow!" n i also missed him alot , but when i do get out of the taxi he seems exhausted from the day before.. he saw me and question why i came so early.. -.-.. i was totally depressed at that moment.. i wonder why the heck i wake early to face his black face.. But thinking its a new year, i jus joking replied him.. No hugs and kisses.. he went back to bed.. and i just sit there doing nothing.. in that instance..i dont want his parents see that..so i went down to the playground and waited for him to call when he wakes..

Then when he did called , i try to forget whatever happen moments before.. haha .. jus dun understand what wrong i do.. sometimes i would get him upset, keep saying wrong things ..haha.. how lei~ hoho... thought bringing things over for him.. he can at least have a new shirt to wear.. but he doesn't seem to know how much i would sacificed myself in buying cheap stuff and save money to give him better things.. Not say i wan to buy him over with money but bec i care so i wan the good things for him , this is natural feeling many people would agree with me ba~ haha.. jus wan pamper him..jus so simple..

i'm always cherishing every moments with him.. cause my dear going army soon le ba.. however i'm abit afraid of seeing his cold cold face and when i am with him .. just felt we have lost some passion ,.. he doesn't hold or hug me when we walked in the streets..is this what happen when couples are going to a year ma? i'm so not use to it.. or is he just too naive that he forget there's someone who yearns to be his teddy bear who can be cudddle and pampered by him? i'm just a girl who wants to be love.. just so so easy...

hahaa..hearing so many stories..the girls told me how they got started with their boyfriend and years came he turn cold and put her back to the shelves.. left her only have boyfriend which is just a "name" and not a feeling anymore..i'm so scare we would become this way.. whats the point in being together but you had lost the passion and you can live without the person..its not a one sided thing..you need two hands to clap and two hearts to keep holding on together isn't it..you wont wan to lose the person le then wan to cherish the time together ba.. stupid isn't it.

haha...oh ya..yest his mum came over to my house at night to ban nian.WOO this is the first time our parents meet...i was very very nervous i fear everything wouldn't turn out good... and i too see the same thing from his face.. he was nervous.. though he didnt show much..anyway thank god all went well.. he was glad n relaxed..

see see.. isn't things smooth for us.. i just dont understan why sweetness cant stay put where it was and continue let us love without worries...
I prayed our days would return to those times when we are just in love.. i really missed those days..

where he would pull me into his arms and fall asleep...

= song for HIM =
i do..
wanna spent my life with
you..

2006-01-17T06:17:00.000-08:00

Got this from an email ... find it very meaning on how to treasure and cherish life...and how to appreciate the person who you love... yet do not know how to express...do read on..

About growing up...

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

About the guy

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot; who calls you back when you hang up on him;

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
( i did this before...cause the snoring was too loud.. i couldn't get into my sweet dreams... turn out to be such a nightmare.. but at least i got to watch the face who kissed me goodnight... )

wait for the guy who kisses your forehead; who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats; who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "..that's her."
(isn't this sweet like a dam off honey.. jus broke off and covered the land with .....oh..~ SWEETNESS~)

2006-01-11T07:23:00.000-08:00

LaLa ~ last week happen many many things didnt get the chance to write it down... anyway i started playing Maple again..dun know what to do at home so just go go click click on the icon Maple on my desktop haha~

Saturday

It was shannen's 4th birthday, she is my mum's friend, Debra's daughter, her husband came from ireland working here permanently..my father wen out in the afternoon to collect the satays while mum and i waiting for my baobei to come over .. had missed him the whole night before .. he took cab over and watched tv , waiting for daddy to get home..and later headed over to Debra's dad place ( rich rich people wor) for a small party and we had fun with the kids there .. first time i bring him to my side's gathering ... had a great time and experience..hope he enjoyed.. wanted so much to entertain everyone and keep a watch out not to left him out.. (libra's characterist.. balancing haha...) well party started and we ate and ate... and ate...! haha...didnt had the chance to chat with Debra and intro Him to everyone~ well next time ba~ will hav the chance~~

Sunday

the night before i went back home with him..on the cab we chatted about his brother's girlfriend.. someone seems to find her luring...-.- well i got to admit she does looks sweet and attractive.. compare to me i do feel i'm abit "not attractive " .. my eyes are small and blur not like her big and attractive ( she got draw eye liner de !!) ~ yes i'm jus BLUr... i cant be able to flirt with him using my eyes.. which dont know why can only attract some other people.. sad sad.. and now i know why his brother choose her over his ex. .. she does makes people want to stare at her.. lolx can u imagine if two brothers fight over the same girll! wa.. ~ this makes me more degraded .. abit sad to hear that he say she can lure people (him la who else -.-) and have the bitch bitch look !..oh well ... rmber last time also got someone in front of me say another girl "sexy" ... what am i supposed to answer? -.- haix.. guess i should be more bitch ? hmm... Dunno la.. (*learn from charmaine) very scare of these types of girls..which i never will be one..

oh well that night and the whole day on sunday i was studying ... kenna watched by him hahaha... so fatherly...yet.. so sweet.. (worst than my mum ar xp ) hope i score well! and everyone in class!

Monday

i guess everyone is the same ba~ -.- stoopid exam day..

Tuesday & Wednesday

worked..worked...and met two person after work~ shh~ dun tell u..~ lolx we over to bugis village to shopp for one watch for *mr sofian...haha..i loved that watch i bought but still have to giv up ... sob sob .. ( actualli wan to giv HIM de..but.... i had drag mr sofian's christmas gift too late ~_~ cannot wait le ) hei hei..tml working again...sob~ earn money ar! I HAb got a gift in mind .....for someone... hei hei...but .. must eat bread for weeks oh~ @@ he more impt.. :) so must earn more wooor~ i can do it! GOGO.. ! jiayo ~ !

2006-01-06T06:02:00.000-08:00

I'm so....so....so....blessed.... ~
.. Jus got the thought that i have all my loved ones beside me in the new year ... i'm so so so ....so blessed ... ~

I have everything my ma ma pa pa my sweet him my friends and my home ~ nothing's gonna get me now... why i always think of the bad things when i got all the best things ~ i can eat i can sleep i can spent my long hours in the bath room, i can go anywhere i want .. see the people i wan to see .. hugged people who i want to cuddle with ... ohhh~ i'm jus so lucky ~ i got the nicest people around me in class .. ~ yes everyone has their faults and imperfect but WHO CARES! haha i dun.. i only wan to smile at everyone who passes by me ~ i got my faults too ~ i can irriate people too but i wont let misunderstandings about me to spoil my friendship with my classmates~

YES~ i know..little miss piggy me is pampered, i'm still not so mature than those in my class .. always wan people to follow what i think what i speak what i want la.. hee .. and what ar..let me think...ohhh......
... oh ya... i'm naive and INNOCENT!hei hei.. and i know that sometimes does annoyed people.. but... how to change... i like being blur... i like the feeling of being taken care of... i dun wan to grow up... ya ya i know everyone will say be REalistic...BUT u know childhood days are little and i dun hav any pretty childhood memories... onli waiting for parents to be home at late nights... you know only child can be pretty bored at times.. thats the reason why~ i liked being pampered.. i need attention and i'm the one of the smallest in class ma so naturally that naughty side of me will APPEAR.... heee... IF ANY PLACE OR ANY TIME I GOT OFFENDED ANYONE..I APOLOGISE~ *bow bow*

HEE...oh ya i'm someone who fears when one lied to me, i will build a wall over that person.. i wont keep away, i will still trust me to believe them but i'll be more careful.. and i cannot stand things not being conFIRM SO I WILL FIND THE truth to the end..maybe in this way i also may hurt someone...like people thinks i dun trust them or what.... well just hav to say whatever we do either it hurt yourself or it hurts others.. so just hav to APOLLOGISE AGAIN~! to the person i hurt lo... though it too late le la..guess HE must be pissed with me hor? hahaha.. sorri la~~la~~ bu hao yi shi~~BUT!!
hei~ hope that person knows that not everything about them is good anyway~ :P like i say everyone got faults~ just dun take things so seriously~ life short short~ be happyy k!!! :)

Darling..darling~~now lets talk about HIM!haha...must hav a confession time for him... heee... lets not always talk good things about him la..later he thinks he REALLY SO SWEET AR!=p hei hei...ya la ya la he sweet...very sweet onli in msg not in person...everytime see me will say i siao cha bo~ REALLY GONNA Become one liao wor ~ and while i talked and talked he will always have WORDS to rebark me! ( the " re-bark " means bark at me :> ) ...AND while go out with me dont hug me as often as those sweet couples i see on street EVERYDAY (jus make me boil wor~)WHY SO geng for what! i got meaty meaty de nice to hug okie :) .. and why whY! got gf lei still like to play game so much lei? gf not fun mei? ....hmmm.... maybe hor @_@ this maybe is my problem... ^^ must improve.... @_@....hee... AND! why u got so MANY female friends for? dun understand why guys got gf not enuff mei~ still need to contact OTHER GIRLS MEI~ why need to compare other girls then know i good ma? :p And dear ar~ dun be so stubborn when playing majong can ma? i know you very li hai but can think other way of playing too.. i'll be beside u to support u win money de~! hao la.. thats for today...

thanks for viewing ..sorri i did say sth wrong love him onli.. =p

2006-01-03T04:39:00.000-08:00

- HappY nEw yEAr puLL youR eaR -

- HaPPy 9th montHS puLL hiS EARs ^^-

no mood to be happy ar..what to do..having 3 papers on a new year who will have the mood ar..
on new year's eve chew yong and mummy and me had our new year eve's dinner at MACHae (did i spelled rightly?) spent about $80 wuwu~ first spending after i got my pay ( i treated everyone that what i said but my mum pay for the feast first lol..) But we had a lovely time.. hugged him after watching the fireworks.. and enjoyed the time waiting for our bus home at 1am plus.. crazy sia.. at least got them with me.. every moments waiting for that stupid bus is worthy la...

aNd yes we had our anniversary celebrated while playing majong again.. ~_~ same old thing .. guess he just like winning everyone la hor~ mr. lim..

last year passed so fast.. for what i can remember is.. i spent my days sleeping in class .. or going over to his place to wait while he plays his game hoping he would take his time abit to talk to me..lolx =p n...playin majong with our two lonely old people in my house.. ha ha.. so glad it has passed...hope a new year we can hav more better things coming up.. and i can grow more mature and sensible yet not grow up at all..

and hope everyone can be happi.. haix...lets try to...jiayo...(everyday someone will msg this to me.. sweet at first but now realli stress seeing this word.... im so terrible rite)

May there be moRE happy days to go... esp this friday..last fri had passed like the time had ended suddenly .. faster come faster go ! I CAN DO IT!

2005-12-27T02:02:00.000-08:00

He is a Man

You have yourself a perfect gentleman and a total keeper

Your guy almost always acts appropriately

He's probably even very upstanding when you're not around

There's no boy left in your boyfriend - he's all man!

Is He A Boy or a Man?

2005-12-27T01:38:00.000-08:00

He Is More Than a Hookup

You've fallen pretty hard for this guy, which could be a great thing.

But if he's just looking for a hookup, this spells trouble.

If your guy wants something serious, than by all means, step things up.

Otherwise, find someone else who's interested in more than a fling.

Is He Just a Hookup?

2005-12-27T01:34:00.000-08:00

You Are a Classic Beauty!

You have a timeless beauty that looks great in every decade

Instead following trends, you stick to what works

And this means you never skimp on your beauty routine

Upside? Your classic looks tends to attract gentlemen - not boys.

What Type of Beauty Are You?

2005-12-27T01:13:00.000-08:00

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them

You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky

You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter

It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

How Do Men See You?

2005-12-27T01:10:00.000-08:00

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful

But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself

You're the perfect blend of independent and caring

You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

2005-12-27T00:48:00.000-08:00

It's 70% Love and 30% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

Is It Lust or Love?

Guys Like That You're Charming

You're the girl most guys can't get out of their heads

Even if they met you on a bad hair day :-)

You just seem to "click" with everyone you meet

So even if a guy forgets about you for a second... his friends haven't!

What Do Guys Like About You?

2005-12-19T02:56:00.000-08:00

Past few days from 15 to 17.. my parents worked those few nights and i had school till noon so i went over to his place after school.. ^^ lol hei hei na de ta YANG wo so many days... since the last school hoilday i had seen him for so many days le...lOL scare to be home alone... :( On sat i got work till 6pm so after work he waitied for me at the station and bring me to dinneR!hei hei hei~ Watched him played games till late late then go eat mac with kai neng... @_@wuu~ whole night they talked talked while i day dream... tired nia after work.. even see mac also not as excited as last time ^^.. ke ke~

As for sunday dear and his bro need to go for award taking i accompany the two brothers ...to SUPPORT THEM AR!lolx.. but in the end i was sitting by the stairs to wait for them for 3 whole hours to receive their $$$$ lolx... so proud my him~ lolx zhen li hai lei~ last time is always my parents who see me go on stage this is the first time i watch someone close to me to take award.. such a amazing feeling...^^ but realli veri tiring eh~ hee i complain complain but still i stayed all the way with them... li hai ba~ while his bro's gf waitied for him at his hse.. hei hei~

~ at woodland pri school - cheeky smirk ~

Then after that after a long discussion he followed my wish we ate PASTMANIA~ I had the clam tomato pasta & he had lazanai~ lolx .. then after that we went back home play majong with my parents..on the way there he bought chocolates and lemon tea ~ hor so angry wor always buy sweet things ..i tell him dun buy he also dun listen.. some say those who like to sweet food actually arent happy people ...@@ is itt ma?...

four whole days spent with him..i really felt very very happy :) ..just cant describe how much i love being by his side...simple times always pass fast yet memorable.. though sometimes he will bully me and scold scold me.. but when he craddle me ha ha my heart will always jump with joy and all sad sad things all disappear .. like the morning worm finds his first worm~~ lolx..hei hei.. christmas cOMING!i so hope can spent with him and i'll be satisifed ( and for all of our christmas ) ^^ GO GO JIA YO!

2005-12-15T16:30:00.000-08:00

why do i feel so small when i'm with Him ...
maybe inside me i've a desire to have some one to take care of me??.. i need not to think too much about what to do where to go .. i jus need to follow.. and will be taken care of... i like that feeling.. if only i can forever never to grow up and always follow his footsteps and doesn't need to bother about anything .. that will be so great.. i know one day the only two people(parents) who really loved me will definitely leave ...i jus wished they can be by my side till the world ends..i am so scared the next moment i might not see them again... haix yo..~ even my friend - wc beside me say dun think then wont scare le @_@ ..

teacher now teaching it2828 sem project ar... so sian... talking about the hyper terminal blah blah blah .. now even my stomach also got the sound growl growl growl.. just now didnt eat lunch ! lolx.. li hai ba~ spent $$ on buying cute cute cute sticker.. @_@ ( as if i still veri small ) haix.. dun wan grow up -.-!! hope i can forever stay the way i am ...get pampered by everyone and buy all the cute stuffs.. ^^whenever i want... @_@ how now i hungry le...

yest after lesson i went to his house to put bag and slept while him and kai played game... dont know why so so so tired lei.. i took nap for 2hrs~ hei .. on the way out he bully me ~_~ make me so angry i ignored him for the whole trip to causeway point and kai beside me felt so *Gan ga* lolx..but was fun ^^ though i was mad but i noticed his sturn face as he also got upset bec he got me upset ^^ hei hei.. WELl later bec of KAI nen we had to sit right in front at row A watching KING KONG AR! wa... it was so haix...poor thing... beauty kills the beast they say... so sad...sad
but the actor also veri shuai..^^ hero to the rescue!~ i was at that time thinking if i was caught by the beast will my dear save me? haha guess he would be the first to faint ba :P so many small strong out in the woods...lolxxx....shhh~

so hungry now...gotta concentrate la~
to be continued..

2005-12-14T07:07:00.000-08:00

take my hand
take me away from anything that will hurt me
i dun wan falling deep and going the wrong way
i dun wan to cry in the night and goes the same road all over again
will you bring me to rest
to a place where only happiness
and no sorrows
i dun wan to bother who call or who msg me
i just wan to lie on the green land
and breathe the air that gives me life
all the past things i usually mused about
when will it ever gonna be an end
get me on my feet
i wan to dance
will you dance with me
i love dancing
i love moving with the wind under the moon
by the river if i could choose
i dun wan to be alone
i dun wan to face the walls and think of someone
who will never puts all his heart in me
i dun wan to only dream
of all things i like
cuddles, hugges and sweet nothings
i wan forever in heaven
i wan my loved ones to be with me forever
never to lose and only to embrace
am i just a child that imagine?
who will bring me to where i wan to be..

2005-12-14T06:47:00.000-08:00

daily horoscope:

Today will likely find you in the mood to nest with your loved ones, Rubez . If there are children in the house, encourage them to stay home to be with you (even if you have to bribe them). Light a fire and pull out the scrabble board. You will be surprised just how much fun a quiet day at home can be. In the afternoon, pop popcorn and drink hot chocolate, no matter what the temperature outside. At night, rent a movie you all want to see. Get out grandma's afghan and cuddle close.

thats for today's .. i would really love that .. if theres someone for me to cuddle after work that would be great but haha..too bad he cant reach here when he's all the way staying at the other side of singapore gonna cost him time, money and energy ... well not even my parents are here tonight ... i'm alone at home doing... practically nothing .. or maybe watching tv counted as one thing?lolx.. yes.. i like the quietness but it will be better if i had someone with me.. isnt it?

jus now at the bus stop i was waiting for 30 to arrive.. and there's this little ger running about or around her grandma .. playing all the fun she had.. so happy all face full blush lolx.. i was watching and i smiled at her when she looked at me.. lolx.. and yes she catch my friendliness haha she came over to sit with me it was a very sweet sight u know.. i just cant explain how comfortable i was then.. ^^ the little in a while went around about me.. i was still the same watching her and i asked her name , she muttered so softly saying " chai xin yi.." :) haha so kawayi bu shi ma? its realli a pity i'm alone with no sibiling thats why i love children so much .. i lack of companion maybe? and they are the least people who would hurt me? lolxx... i getting abit lengthy hei hei noni sure complain " yawn yawn" le.. BUT... well we got on the bus with her grandma and elder brother .. she insist on sitting beside me and i request whether i could take pic with her.. ALL was okay~ BUT that stupid phone was low batt.. i couldn't save our short memory ... haix..sad oh~ anyway i find that nowadays kids likes to get close to me... am i getting motherly? or my hormones are changing? lolx really hope to have one soon... my own..yes...

though work has been tough these few days but i like working with the people in ELC they relaxed my moods and bring me away from thinking too much of somethings.. lolx.. i am in need of rest.. maybe i will go by esplanent some day alone...but of coz i would prefer company .. though i think i always end up doing things alone ... is not i dun need friends but i still not yet find one who really can care for me and who i can really depend on ... other than my mum... but still there's a differences...ba? mum always my best but jus some part of us are diff... love u mummy~

really hope i could go back to the time when i'm still a child... with no burdens and no troubles and pressure from others or myself... jus run around the people i love and be happy ...

2005-12-13T18:24:00.000-08:00

wahahaha~ see what i am doin now in lesson time...writing blog -.- muahahah~ jus now received a msg from uma asking me to sign for her...then when i got the attendence sheet from teacher i did it...so sway~ -.- this teacher counts head de...he counted 11 names while we only have 9 people here...-.-#$%$#% zao zhi dao jiu bu yao help her sign... i keep my head low low de.lolx..teacher keep asking then i diam diam..lolx..wo pa si ar~ -.- haha.. now teacher still talking about routers stuff..and i am not concentrating bec i havin a VERY Hungr stomach growling insid me... wuwu~ just ate a sweet thought will fed me abit but no use... always at this time i hungry...-.-really believe my past life should be zhu oh~

a moment ago..wc use alan nick to msg me on msn.....

TransparentC Transformation says: very sian

TransparentC Transformation says:
come dnace for me lei

TransparentC Transformation says:
muack

[[ ]]. WЏъҸ says:

u stand up jump one time then i will dance with u

[[ ]]. WЏъҸ says:
u dare??

...OMG!he really stand up in front of teacher and jump lei!!!!!!^^^^^^so funny!~ and realli pei fu ta wor....teacher's eyes divert to the side like this... (¬ ¬)''.. haha so dam fuNNY!anyway i told him says...i will dance only when teacher leaves the room...lolx...^^ yaya wait long long...~ ^^ but i think i dare...hee later see how..~

HAHAH~jus finsh eating my lunch~yong dao fu~~leilei~zhen hao chi~ curry and the octopers and crabmeat and lady finger..lolx..so delicious jus now got a lady help me to take the thong lolx..^^hao ren hhui yo hao bao dE~lolX haha...so full full~ love eat yONG dao fu hei hei hei!

yest...

i went worked at 3pm..with siti(mummy) and Ida lolx..did keep stock then the boss came in -_-..zhen tao yan..lolx i try to keep myself away from Alex (the lady boss) keep walking around and kapo kapo people doing work....people busy still wan to stand beside and stare at what we doing...HAO TAO YAN OH! ezzz (+_+)'' haha..thank goodness she jus stay there for few mins..lolx then we did gift wrapping till closing time...with mummy~ i eat YI DA LI MIAN! zhen hao chi lei~ forget to return mummy $6.90 haha ..after work her hubby came to pick up while me me me... lonely one walked to the bus stop alone..@@ when i was about to reach the stop.. i saw that stupid bus and i -.- ran towards it but it just drove away leaving me sad sad sad .... so pai seh~ lei!! (i rarely run after bus...always cannot catch).. lolx ... not tired not as i expect... but recevied msg from HIM..saying he took nap after he went home till night time....@@
why so tired...sure last nite sleep very late RITE! do wat ar....~ make u tired~ ar~lolx...
dont let me catch u talk to mei mei in the night till veri late and make u so tired.. :P
xiao mei mei hai shi hui pa pa ..

see my friends blog all talking about...havent found the right ger for him.. or wan to find a perfect bf for her... lolx..why everyone so wan to be in a relation.. being single hav its freedom and no worries...being together also hav fear of losing each other...why human are all the same..always have troubles in whatever they do..
Anyway how would u know who is your ms right and ur mr right... why some ppl only wan stead while some wan life time partner... i agree with wc.. i prefer to look for a life time partner...than a bf.. once i fall in love i will think far far de... will think how will i live my life with the one i love .. how i will pamper my child as much as my parents do to me.. but but...well like my bf says...i think too much~ hahahaha i like to imagine.. ^^mei ban fa

2005-12-08T21:04:00.000-08:00

hee..i jus changed my blog template to something more simple...so sweet hei hei i kanna strucked when i heard this lovely song...wuwuwu~ so nice so nice~ took me two to three hours to finsh this BLOG muHAHAHAH~ ZHen jiao ao wor~ hope its easiler to navigate now ^^ simple n SWEET

The day before today...lol...went to watch Aeon flux with my Darling... i bought the couple seat..so scary..behind us got space one ...ewww~ so scare that something might jus spring out to eat us...@_@ but lay in his arms for the whole movie...like go back to the days we just together..hee.. but now back pain pain... coz i stayed one position for very long...^^'' ke shi still got xin fu de wei dao~ ^^ He treated me swensen~#_# ordered so many food cannot finsh .. waste $$ <--- its me, i didnt finsh hei hei... Then beside us got little girl spilled water all over... i almost burst out laughing, the way he looked at the family was so funny ~_~ lolx hei hei..

Anyway~ ^^ today was such a loVELy day~ ^^ slept in class...and meiyun massage me~ wa~ zhen shu fu~ if i'm her bf i think i'll ask for it everyday~ ^^ hoho~ then i slept again at C++ LECture..kanna teacher caught, and asked me to answer one stupid qns -_- ... lolx i was liked..O_o huh? .... wo hai *yawn yi xia..lolx...^^ hope teacher mei yo bei wo QI si oh~ Hei hei...

ThEn...after school was so so so so tired..but dunno y lei..^^ i wen to wait for him off work..^^sweet ma~ lolx..then we went to yishun for free dinner! < --- onli me...coz his mum treat lolx..hee..zhen bu hao yi si~
Then... his mummy's manager saw me...^^Thought i was her daughter~ lolx..haha so cute...@_@ think i realli looked their family hor~ hee... but her colleages knew who i am lolx.. was smiling so bright at me...lolx..i of coz cannot throw her face...lolx.. i also smiled back ^^ though the food not nice :P ( he said de )... haha... and oh~! he take train with me to YCK...:) wo zhen xin fu ^^ ... and i got secretly put a small message in a bottle in his little bag... :) hope he like it..~

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HOPE everyone like the song...so SWEET!

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2005-12-05T03:40:00.000-08:00

ZHUO TIAN my sweetie came to fetch me after my work~ ^^ so happi to see him found his way through The huge Suntec and had dinner with me... we chatted and discuss our thoughts out.. i realised i missed him so much after a long day...and he was so well-groomed bathed and shaved... :) just felt lovely with him around me... ThE day was still young and we took cab back home... my parents were waiting for us...4 the old same thing -> play majong ~ Started late ended late...lol. .. and i lost to all 3 of them...sob sob so sad...bully the small one...:P

This gonna be his second last week on attachment..after next week he is gonna be free..~hei hei can see him school finally...and he no need wait up that early for work.. :) sypathise him that he everyday he have to be so tired during work... and cant have enough time to rest... ( though i find his working hours rather little le la @_@ ) but still.... ke lian de bao bei....#_#..

This week i having 3 working days..haix... tues, wed,and sat all till 9.30pm....horrible...always before i go to work...i would dread my day...but after work i would feel relief and relax and happi....duno y i jus dun like working ba....not suit to working life? hope i can stay home after marry...take care of the house chores...take children to school and back home and bathe them then prepare dinner...ho ho ho zhen xin fu ne~ (think too much -_-...wont happen i guess)

In relationships now then i realised there are so many things to take care of and take note of...
Not everything you want is what you will get. Every person will have their little differences.
No one will have the same thinkings as you do.. so dont expect other people will understand what you want or what you think... If you don't like people to do to you, dont do the same to the others too.. Practice what you preach... For example behind your back you dont want to see or hear your lover to betray or lie to you, firstly the right thing to do is to not lie or betray others.. This is a very important principle in life everyone should practice....

Once i see a guy told his gf "i will not do things you doesnt like and i'll try my best to do what you like me to.... :> " This will be the best way to avoid conflicts..

2005-12-02T07:11:00.000-08:00

Liked this song?...... sweet but sorrow

.... still remember ....

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........

Waiting for you

i'm waiting for you ..

牵着你不断旋转

一直到黑发成了银线

...Waiting for you waiting for you

直到永远

...

2005-12-01T16:31:00.000-08:00

~ SWeet 8th month sweet ~
today ar 1st of dec is our 8th month together... time passess so fast yet seems to crawl so slowly... = 3 we went for movie~ "CHICKEN LITTLE"~ at causeway point again~ i reached the meeting place much more early than him ..place all our not much past unhappy moments behind and sat on the tall stool awaits for him... #_#

... half hour later.... mr. LIM finally reached.. haha everytime i waited for him de... coz my school let me off early and his company only let him out on time everyweek...saw him walking towards me i smiled BRightly..because after a week i can see him... really happy..cant explain why...

Then he asked me whether i was hungry i told him no...and instead of us having our feast..we went for one time pool~ ^^ i won him o~ of coz bec he " put water" la...hee but was very fun... my hands shaked when i hold the pole and at the side he was -_- ... hahah... so sian play with me hor... so blur and stupid...rite. :P But i win him~ hei hei..( 1st time he teach me play :) rare lei~ )

Then our movie starts, so so SOSO CUTE AND FUNNNY...we sat at the lover's sit (>_O) so romantic...but he was zzzzzzzzz... LOL..stupid old man..watched cantoon also can tired one.. and he was the one who wanted to watch... after movie he was urgent to go toilet..so we were the 1st to run out of the threater O_o omg so pai seh~ hide my head behind his back... omg doin all this for him ar -.-

but the night was fun... .and really enjoyed our first day of the month together...

However..
His mum told me he didnt go to work the day before.. every morning i would put my alarm at 6.40am to wake him up... n yet he couldn't the day before ... coz he was feeling a little unwell.. and yet didnt tell me the truth...i was so mad at that moment... this really hurts me..i trust him that he really woke up yet he....haix...and when after school i wanted to see him coz i had a bad day... he told me he wanted to rest... haiz all things finally come in place.... he was afraid i get upset... so he decided to pretend he was at work... and insist i must meet him today... haix... dun fail my trust in u darling.. i alway believe u...dun fail me... n i forgiv...u..

well.. everythings alright now i'm gonna trust he wont lie to me agaIN! its all for his good i dun wan him fail his attactment... @@ but cant help to sayang him for getting sick... ¬ ¬ where to find such a gf like me.... -.- haiz... no wonder he showed me his mc without me asking.... ;P hmph~! no wonder...ahahha... like small boy... hai...x... waking up everyday at 6 plus is indeed a torture for him... poor thing... muack..

love u only....and more each day~ ^^ gave him a card n a small gift ... shhh~

2005-11-26T23:26:00.000-08:00

went for work today ^^ done some balloon blowing ~
first time blow balloon with helium eh.. done alot till fingers turn purple le... felt i learn something today..not bad... i had lots of fun with jen and like liz being around me, she's like a mother of 3 of us haha played games infront of customers la and i also ate fries in front of them too lolx.. so interesting hor..work can be so relax...had many trouble thoughts in mind but was clear when i get myself things to do...lol not bad right... :)

children running around make me so tired...and hungry...i read some books along as the time pass real slowly...like crawling snails..and yet we entertain ourselves...now i'm named as the "one who talks in werid language" haha and jen as the violent onE! and sofian as the "having illusions one" he say i funny funny one speak like alien..^^ at least i ate full today...two veg and two meat and one huge bowl of rice...wu...just for $3 plus...^^ and plus one honey dew ( the orange one ) so sweet...lol love the time when i was just to get off work.. i check my phone whole day no msg...lolx so quiet...dun like phone to be quiet..lolx..well long day hor~ now one of the diamonds on my fingers came off coz of tieing that BALLoons lolx...anyway had fun la...

lol...and yet veri tired too...... msged wrong person somemore...wu~i blur blur everyday... day dreaming thats what they say about me...@_@... got mei....@_@

ps: i like my shoes..$_$yoyo~n i find babies crying terribly adorable..lolx

New news...got to work next sat ( 12-6) and sun (full day) = haix.........
what to do ... must train myself from staying away from that piseces ... guess he need time with his friends... just have to leave him alone for the time being...time not as enough as last time..so must adapt ... haix.... -.- if only we stay near ... then he might be able to come to see me... lazy old man.. zzz.. games..games games...haix

2005-11-25T19:57:00.000-08:00

He finally brought me to watch "Harry Potter and the goblet of fire" so exciting...fanastic to go with him though i didnt chose a comfortable seating causing the both of us have to lean our heads on the chair..tirng...but i enjoyed myself though the air con was very cold, i had my warm just sitting right beside him.... wore a orange button up shirt..very nice..veri neat...veri cute..:)

Then couldn't sleep well last night cause it was raining heavily and with thunder somemore...i was shivering like i was in an iceberg ...#_# and having a person tossing and turning beside me , i was freezed ( didnt have a thing to hold ma) started to afraid demons would find me i more cannot sleep....realli the walls were colored red...#_#scary ma...if u looked at ur ceiling and find it red .....

Yest before i went to woodland watched movie with him i went his house to put my bag and had interesing conversations with his mummy... she said i look like someone ... whom when i hear of the name... i started to feel hmm.... upset.... it always reminds me of them last time .... and i just dun understand why i just cant tolerate past ..... nor from myself too... haix...

today was suppose to go eat at geylang with my classmates but the majority says it was too far.... and i am also the minority who is follow what they say... not say i ma fan or wat...but at least theres still some miority who needs to be taken care of..not always go to places where the majority stay near ma...must be fair

ai ta la~

2005-11-21T23:39:00.000-08:00

wuwu~ today the guys in my class bully me ¬ ¬ bully me small girl hor~ i tell mr. lim bite u! ( i think he will just smile smile o) anyway i am not GOING to wear skirts in raining days again! bu~~ hei hei~ nothing to see le^^ good~

recevied my b'dae present from Meiyun and Lay xuan jie jie~ a white with black lace hello kitty underwear -.- hee...veri sweet of them and very cute..^^ xiexie..next time wear show u..opps no la~ impOSSIBLE DE!hei hei

last few days had a hell of fun..ya FUN- . - i went to do a manicure and penicure at "hOllywood nails" at bugis...just a few simple nail art cost me $100!! surely kanna cheat ar~ service so bad ...= (

Then on last sat i went for Mike and yan jie's wedding ..was so fun and sweet and loving and xin fu wor~ well young couples will spent more time together till old..then those who married later..i wish them forever love...

today just received my testimonial from HIM!...well...though i dun realli like what he wrote for the first few lines talking about eternity....-.- dunno why he even think of this....always say i think too much i guess is he think too MUCH ba! -.- and...and.... " enjoy your company" ...hmph! take me as what! be with u is not company u wor! is bec i wan to be with u..and no other reason!!!!!! >_<

actualli he just write the last sentence i more then happi le~
anyway....#_# i so ma fan...he dun write i sad he write i also complain..~ hei hei hei!!! onli he can ta han me la!!! ai ta la! hei hei~ muax

one last thing....hee....he cut hair!!!lolx
i love it...!

mei bang fa~

2005-11-16T22:51:00.000-08:00

another day of 9.30pm reached home days... i have been working three days in a row while having a night class... all ends at 9 plus... this is really tiring , my arms and legs are aching , esp. my back..pain pain.haix... guess mr. piggy wont understand this kind of tiredness... study in the morning and working till the shops closed.. but i still understand waking up every morning at 6.40 isnt a easy task...we xin qu le...

rather upset cant be there to fetch him after work... feeling real bad... :( if only we arent so many stops away..

yes..today stocks came in..and the shop was in a mess..seeing mr. SOfian almost everyday...sian lolx..no la..~ maybe he isnt the guy i wanted to see everyday ba..@@.... sob sob..cut my little middle finger today...lol^^ should have seen how i wrap my finger with scotch tape to prevent blood from flowing ...hei hei~ li hai lei~ a chinese mother came in and talk and talk and talk to mr. sofian ...lolx not tired lei~ then laughter also werid wierd one like HEI~HEI~HEI~ ......scary... i listen to her talk ..make me more sian~ lolx well getting more close to ELC le...

well.. getting to get frustrated with myself... realised that after all i have done... i'm still not up to the "good girlfriend" or perfect one... haix... temper la..time management not good la... tend to speak sacastic words la.. don't know how to connect with my friends la... dot dot dot... so and so says these...make me feel that " wa... i realli so bad in your eyes ar..." sad......
sad.....
sad.... very sad...

WHY! am i always upset...lolx ^^ dunno =p i'm an interesting person hor.... horrible....being my friends very ke lian...be my Boyfriend also beri ke lian.... hor?? -.- ... ya i realli dun koe how to balance well...but dunno lei? maybe i just different or am i jus typical girls who put love in first place? This is what matters to me most... like what other people's first priorty i wont disagree or dis-encourage ba.. coz they have their rights to think what they want...hope it be the same for me.. that though wat i have in mind, others can give me the same respect ya.... ?

...#_# so tired.... morning to night... .who will understand.... only me ba...

200days

2005-11-13T20:47:00.000-08:00

still.. waiting for the promised testimonial....

..............well guess he forgotten about it... its just a small thing yet so hard to accomplise... @@? all things he do means alot alot to me.. just hope i can get it.... -_-... sobsob ... :)

SweEt 200 DAys~ ~^^

You're amazing so amazing

have I told you enough

you're my angel

guardian angel

god knows I've been blessed with love

but if I been gone tomorrow

would you know how deep my loves goes

have I ever told you you're the one

if the words don't come my way

hope its still love

hope it still shows

if the words don't come my way

hope you still know

what my heart wants to say

words so tender

I surrender to this feeling

so true

my affirmation my inspiration

darling I have been blessed with you

if the words don't come my way

hope you still know

hope it still shows

if the words don't come my way

I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

but if I be gone tomorrow

would you know how deep my loves goes

if I was gone forever

would you know how much I care

you make me feel like flying and failing

all emotion that everytime you look at me

you see it in my eyes

if the words don't come my way

I hope you still know if the words don't come my way

I hope you still know

I hope it still shows

-------------------

....

he loves me

......

baby

i love u too

more n more n more

everyday :)

2005-11-10T23:00:00.000-08:00

Today ar..another day of lessons -.- and i love going to school recently don't know why just feel very happy to see all my classmates around me, hearing them smile and talk jokes i really love SCHOOL!hei hei~
and sleeping in lectures.. ^^

talking abt this i just cant stop myself from drooling into my dreamland in school maybe is because i didn't get enough sleep? no..impossible i slept at 11pm last night nei~ weird..horhor.. i'm getting alittle lazy le -.- this must be learned from that piggy de ( him lo ).. and once i closed my eyes my mind goes zzzzzzzzz....LOL shiok!

In class wc,stan, ter, ds, and Lc all kept talking abt maple i also join in..lolx..keep teasing me and meiyun today horrible them lolx... oh ya today she went for her advanced theory test its really really a pity she didnt pass but i know she will do well the next time..we will support u!! BEc TODAY she too stress...wc dIS-encouraged her which is most worst thing that could happen to someone who is going for her test! bad him!! lolx...at least in maple he still nice la~ lolx... dui bu dui~

after lessonS..took the train with ter and lc towards jurong east...lolx..find that lc become more cheerful le .. ^^ keep smiling...haha...gues he's excitied to go to HK next week ba!~ hope he hav fun and hahaha... we can have presents...lolx...

i reached choa chu kang......around 6plus to meet my ichigo85...lol wc in class told me he wanted to challenge him in maple..lolx so wu liao his level is much lower than wc how to challenge ar..lolx...anyway .. my heart leaps with joy the moment i saw him..like long lost friend..^^ boifriend la...well had fun with him.. his smell and everything...went home with a grin on my face..!~ my cute bf~ oh ya...my classmate dun think he's ... i think he's best looking lo~ dun care how people say =p his mine and his the BEST~ *choke* lolx hei hei...

going to meet my piggy in dream land......................

tml got work again....hmmm...gonna earn more than piggy!!! lolx..

2005-11-09T23:23:00.000-08:00

1. Hugs from behind.
2. Grab her hand when y'all walk next toeachother.
3. When standing, wrap your arms aroundher.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. DONT FORCE HER TO DO ANYTHING.
6. Write little notes.
7. Compliment her Honestly.
8. When you hug her, hold her in yourarms aslong as possible.
9. be super sweet to her
10. Pick her over ur friends.. no matterwhat.even if your friends call u pussy whipped.
11. comfort her when she cries.
12. love her with all your heart.
13. Pick her up and flirt with her only.
14. Be a gentleman (hold the door forher).

{ some are just bullsh*T..haha but i like number 1 & 2}

2005-11-08T21:22:00.000-08:00

I finally found someone

That knocks me off my feet

I finally found the one

That makes me feel complete

It started over coffe

We strated out as friends

It's funny how from simple things

The best things begin

This time is different

And it's all because of you

It's better than it's ever been

'Cause we can talk it though

My favouite line was

"Can I call you sometime"

It's all you had to say

To take my breath away

This is it, oh I finally found someone Someone

to share my life

I finally found the one

To be with every night

'Cause whatever I do

It's just got to be you

My life has just begun

I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting? I didn't mind

I apologise, baby that's fine

I would wait forever just to know you were mine

You know I love your hair

Are you sure it looks right?

I love what you wear

Isn't it too tight?

You're exceptional

I can't wait for the rest of my life

------------

a wedding song - i finally found someone

2005-11-03T22:25:00.000-08:00

Today's my second day of work!

in the morning HE was supposed to eat breakfast with mE!BUT he cant wak up..jus sent me to the door only~ ^^ haha...my lazy pigg..see him blur blur now finally understand the feeling of senting loved one to work le hor! ha ha.. not a nice feeling i know...-_-'' miss the person the moment they leave your sight...NOT a good feeling at all...Now he knows muahahahahha~ miss mi ba~

Leg sore~ mouth sore ( smile too much ) ~ mind sore~ eye sore~ tired tired lei~ esp. feet now flat flat so pain~ AT least got the staff can talk talk to me...chitchat whole day~ ^^ children run around make the day more exhuasting to pass~ lolx...

zzzzzzzzzz...anyway he's really sweet today and YESTERDAY!^^love him beri muchy~

zzz

2005-11-02T00:26:00.000-08:00

well... hmmm..... hav i been too good, giving up my desires to allow what others want? thats what in my horoscope... werid.....

actualli today wanted to see someone de.... but he had to go out with his friends... though its after i went out to walk walk then i know de... its been awhile since he went out with his buddies... thats good i guess... hoilday relax relax abit.. happy for him....=>

but why do they hav to chose today... -.- haix... onli upset abt this little thing... well... its alright le.... i'm fine... my mind went ...........*blank*

anyway what had happened haD HAppened.. so i think... 1st day of the month just passed ... i'm glad.... now even he had to go out tml again.. i wont feel upset le... though i wished to have spent it with him yest... hmmm... just have to wait for another month .... haix....

just hate myself for being so depressiNG!!!-.-

so tired... walked in the streets... thank goodnes my attention was diverted ... not really spent it in getting moody... i should have my fun too... i'll turn into zombie if i keep going down.... but if i dun get down i wont get up....so just bare with me .... for those who will be around me...
haha..

no dreams tonight please..... i need to rest peacefully... =3

short chat

2005-11-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

had a short chat with a friend today...
he told me he missed his girlfriend who's in malaysia..
while him ..he have to be in singapore.....
he said... " i'm arent like your boyfriend who can see you anytime he wans"...

my heart aches for these two lover... why does destiny or fate or whatever....have to separate both of them...letting their path be so hard to walk on... maybe in this way they can cherish each other more when they do meet... thinking if this will be me... i guess i wont survived the days...

so i guess take for example .. my boyfriend wont understan the feeling of missing his love one so badly that he knows whatever he do...he jus cant get to her side the next moment... if ever a day... we take a switch i think things will be very interesting... surely you will see someone smiling and thanking the gods above for giving him the chance to be by her side, cherishing her non stop, hugging her (maybe)non stop, no tempers, no moodiness, only smiles... ... while the other .. he may suffer or may not in a way test himself on how much he do care for the one he love... :)

anyway... i really do hope days can pass quickly can giv these lovers a chance to meet again... :) n people who can meet as often never take things for granted.. treasure the one who can be near you...its just whether you want to open eyes and see who should be dote on...

7th month!

2005-11-01T00:33:00.000-08:00

hmm.... i played a whole day of maple today....
and.. i jus realised sometimes i'm just pathetic....
just a silly little insect wanting all the attention in the world yet no one
noticed i'm just right below their feet....

is maple created to improve people's circle of friends or jus to help them
kill boredom.... and ignorant..or just to let them know how small they are... game world is jus another big pond...

i'm selfish to myself.... i wan everyone to care and have their eyes on me.... yet i'm just never satistifed becoz i never get what i expect.....

sad sad me... today ...i mean now ... jus passed midnight... its my 7th month with him ... and i'll only get to play maple with him ... for tomorrow's (1st nov ) morning... dunno y... just abit upset... its alright... its alright....i'm fine.....

HapPi 7th moNth .....

just dunno y the more things i do the more i expect to have in return...
hate myself for this thoughts....

sometimes i wonder what am i awake for....to play maple everyday? to level up? ...ya i gues so.... in his eyes ...

the fan is blowing at me...yet not the usual one i hated..the one in his house...real strong...can fight with my room's aircon... keep blowing and slapping the ends of my hair onto my face... i hated it but now... i'm missing it....missing the smell of the room... the.. person who always sits at in front of his computor and forgot about the pressense of the girl who's waiting behind at the bed... wonder when will he come over to just giv her a warm hug....and till she falls asleep....its her happiness to have him turn around with a smile...then she knows its worth it...

only when the sound of the click off of the lights then she gets real bliss... with him laying beside her.... n thinking will this be forever? will she still have the years to go on?.... will her love be strong enough to be satistifed with his back view..... ? the feeling gets colder n colder.... the boy never knows ... the infinite loneliness behind him......

may time be kind to those who desires love....

yes...

*happi 7th month*

2005-10-27T01:59:00.000-07:00

YES! today me me me went to wait for mr. LIM at the mrt after his tiring work~ lolx.. msged him to wait for me, thought i would be later than him, but in the end yes! i reached first..thank goodness... dun wan him to always be the first to arrive lol.. was real joy to see him after his job..can listen to him talk about his work and stress and boredom la...and today i hear of a news that he found out there's another young lady working in the company ...

ohhh ~_~ someone is becoming very curious oh~ though he say she looks so - so but at least is the same age ma~ still will wan to make friend rite~ ^^ well though i dun trust other people but i believe he will be guai guai oh~ coz ur gf also at home guai guai~ cannot anyhow flirt flirt oh ~ or i bite pi gu !! hei hei~ nah ~ cant bare to ..... well make friends are normal .. i understand , jus hope he knows what he is doing..dont do things that you dont wish others to do to you... ~ lolx yet would prefer him to have things to do rather than just rotting there....^^ ( c i so gd..where to find .. ) But if i give up on sth..i wont turn back again.. do take note oh~

back to today! lolx... we went for our dinner at CauseWay Point...with kai neng .. poor thing him...he took a trip up to Malaysia to meet his dream girl and kanna dengue fever and spent a bomb there...haix..see him today whole body red.red de..really sympatised him..while everyone not encouraging him to have this relationship with the girl...i totally support him..cause i believe in love, everything is possible! i know...sometimes situation doesnt allow people to do what they want..and friends tend to advise him in their good ways...but you cant underestimate love ! lolx.. never try never know you might succeed... hei hei~

this friday i going to have my first day work~ at paragon! taking on the place of a sales in the Early Learning Center...at level 5! muahaha... so now wont have enough time to see my little piggy...ohh~ but its good anyway.. i have to learn to be independent on myself.. trying hard to do so.. dont know what results will be presented after i start work...yup......
guess i will be cherishing more when i see him...hope it be the same for him..... a test! to our relationship~ -_- i hate life ......wuwu...

sometimes though i know i'm growing up already but i still cant get rid my habit of being sticky to my him.... guess i'll never change..... my him jus have to love me~ mORE!lolx

good nite...anyway i'm rather moody today...-_- mood swings coming~~

i miss the fan that blows at my face when i lay besides u.....

2005-10-23T07:01:00.000-07:00

i recently fall in love with babies...dunno why jus love to hav one myself.. some kind of crazy ponders of dressing them and holding them in my arms...but well i know for example 'someone' will warn me having babies isn't jus looking at the good side.. many other bad things will happen too...but i am too postive about everything ba..so cant blame for getting excited with some things... ^^ theres always good n bad jus depend on how u handle it... your heart matters the most. just came back with some red wine still linger in my liver .. feeling alittle dizzy... while someone is already fall straight onto the bed sound asleep -.- next time cannot feed him alcohol le -.- pathetic....man... watched april snow on last friday...made me decided yes..i dun wan to get married ... getting married in the end just get to find out your other half had cheated on you...whats the point of signing that paper and saying vows? just taken advantage for... terrible....yah....horrible...only get to know after they get into accident and looking through the phone massage ... and the camera...haix...and finding love after getting married ..in the movie i dun think both of them love each other...is jus that they happened to be the victims of a bad marriage...betrayal....-.- yah...

i'm getting real dizzy....tml gonna be a another long day...wonder when will i ever get to receive another testimonal from him....when will he get the mood to write to me...at least to remind me that i'm thought of .... by him...lolx... waiting...still waiting....i've been the waiting ever since we been together....dun mind at all.... love to see him .. so its worth it.

:) have u wonder why the moment that person leaves your sight , your heart tends to worry ... how are they, what are they doing, are they thinking what you are thinking?... do they still love you? do they miss you like you are right now? ... n ..oh yes i'll love to have them back right in my arms again...

till the day you have these thoughts and feelings...let me tell u... this is love... baby... yes....

17.10.05

2005-10-17T21:27:00.000-07:00

wawawawa~ so long no come blog blog le~

guess everyone not that free come online to come here see see ba..hei hei.. my hoilday wasted wasted no job ~ hei hei

but mostly of the time spent fruitfully la~

weekends and sometimes weekdays will get to see him after work...thats most pleasing already muheheheh~ wait for him to off at 5.30pm then meet him at causeway point~ heh~so sweet~

but..now got conversation problem bet both of us~ sometimes one duck one chicken hard to get thru our point of views...its not a big problem just giv in to each other and vent vent frusration .. will see rainbow again~ both of us must learn how to compromise....hee...jiayo~!

can see his work really tired him out.. isnt too much work that cause him so sian but is no work that led him to boredom and mental fatigue...haha so funny nothing to do also will tired...got work to do also tired...he so lucky le~ at least he no complain la~ so guai guai lo..hee...he got such a good life..~ both family love him so much la , gf also treat him veri good la, work also easy like bo liao nothing to do~wa... wanna see what good deeds he done past life..now so fortunate..^^ so if he more jiayo , can more easy succeed in life! wa~ ming zhen hao wo~ ^^

as for me~ hee ... everyday stay home or his home also life as good as days pass by...~ can go out daily shop shop with mother or friend , and either he pei me or i pei him~ this hoilday quite boring but also veri xin fu...hei hei next time will be hard for me to have this kind of relaxed vacation lo~ @_@ i think....

today went out with mummy n suling was talking abt charmaine~ and! wa...really saw her at bugis with her boy boy...and we pulled them along with us to eat at the bugis street~ lolx finally we see her...didnt hav the chance last week cause she cant wake up -.- haha ...had fun ...kept running to toilet cause we had a wonderful feasts , quite worth it oh~

came home rather early wanted to play maple ( with my darling la hei hei ) but msn kept dc lo~ so irriating..d/l half way dc hor~~~~ qi si wo la...now still d/l must wait for an hour -.- HOR~ qi si wo la~ @_@ dunno he play alone bored or not #_# no see his cute gf hei hei hei~
got time must support Maplestory oh~

maple

2005-10-03T13:04:00.000-07:00

= 3.10.2005=

Ruby's zodic for today

Don't fear any changes that are ahead. Even if you think you don't adjust too well, you have far more adaptability than you realize. Without change, life would become stagnant and lifeless. It wouldn't be long before you became dissatisfied and bored with the same old thing. Try to see change as an adventure and a gateway to greater happiness and fulfillment in your life. Trust more in your versatility, as well.

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well can see my horoscopes says i'm gonna have change for this week onwards.. not prone to adapting changes at all times.. i love the way i'm lived last week no exams and can be with the ones i loved everyday.. thats the best.. But not too good this week cause first thing. my darling's went for his attactment today ( work = many problems going to happen ) , second thing. i'll have to look for a p/t job or else i'll be missing him like hell and bored to death, third thing. hard for us to meet, fourth thing. i hate nightmares.

ya..guess u guys know how i'm feeling now..haha..seems so passive hor..hee what can i do...nothing hei hei hei...need to clear my mind and look towards the new road le.... -_- help me help me... someone intro jobs for me hao ma ^^

last THURs i went out with my beloveD shanae and yali for a lunch hi-tea, we ordered tons of food and food and ya..fOOd...haha..had lots of fun..so long no see our ms. yali still the same ms. piecses hee..miss them so much oh~ around five plus i reached amk to meet up with my poly classmates ^^ sang ktv and yvonn taught me pool so fun..^^ and we had tons of laughter when LC and Wc had them to do what the others had planned for them - one to finsh the milk in a baby bottle while the other had to have his eyebrow stick with two thicker ones and walked around amk till they get to giodano^^lol.. fun day oh

on Thurs night my dear msged me whether to watch movie the other day.. had missed him one whole day.. supposed to hide it from him but my mouth just shoot out what i felt..hei hei..on FRI itself i wen for a job interview , was told that i maybe informed two weeks later -_- haix...jus tell me say no ma...wat 2 weeks later waste my time oh...then straight after i head to my dear's hse bought food for him, as it was raining real heavily dunno why i took bus and was glad he came down to pick me up..

^^ i love rainy days .... get warm cuddles hee.. :) spent my whole day in his house crying so terribly watching " Ai qing he yue-love contract " hei hei looking at those two would remind me of me and him ... thats why i feel what they felt in the show...when love brings sorrow and happiness... no matter how long u two been together or how short.. love gives u mountains of feelings .. and thats why i can cry so much hei hei..

haha.. recently just get more nightmares about him.. maybe in reality i'm just afraid of something gonna happen am i? heard people say dreams reflect what u feel and what u think...but doesnt happen to be true just fears - nightmares - hee...pray hard tonight i dun think and dream too much ... or else i might just stay awake for the whole entire night ....... counting stars...

mi is playing maplestory!! now at level 15 le! hei hei so thanks to my dear he help me fight de..^^ he's playing a new character of his own for the sake of mine.. so to help me level up and play with me :) touching neh~

bec of his smile i knew how to smile too.....

18

2005-09-28T11:10:00.000-07:00

hahahA~ today mi is 18 le~ yesterday received alot of msg from so many people..so happi...so happi so many friends remember my b'dae~! ^^ HE see le say he jealous hei hei~ maybe bec now got friendster ba? so people just go online then will get informed?^^ but....xie xie da jia~ I now big ger le~will guai guai de~ hei hei~qing duo duo zi jiao~! ^^

well...on SAT as usual, since its hoilday le... i go over to his home to pei him....his mummy reborn and cut her hair..hee i see her i was like " wa...auntie hen hao kan ! " hee i also want....then his mummy show me her relative lend her de vcd ( xie xie auntie *bow*) ~ " ai qing he yue " so funny and enjoying~ ^^ mostly about how two enemies fall in love with each other..so sweet...he was beside me playing his game...hee...i watched whole day @_@ till blur blur n hungry , he went out with his friend to buy clothes and bought dinner for me! i waited till i so starving i told him no need to rush back i can go buy my own but...he insisted that i wait for him a little while he'll come back soon #_# ...
Hee.... when he reached home i see the mee pok noodles he bought my heart felt warm warm de .. so guai finshed everything !~_~ bec he buy de n veri nice..hei hei.... at night we went over my hse to start the majong session again -_-'' haix...old people game...

Then SUNDAY when we both wake up, and ate our breakfaast...majong session start again....^^hee..he so li hai win so much money, my coin box in the end become kong kong de #_# ehhh~ play play play till night time everyone was so hungry we had mac !! as supper!!!hohoho... well can see that now he come my hse he more relaxed than last time le...more familiar and able to open his mouth to interact with my parents.. me felt relieved and glad .. have to help him to open up..*knod knod* dun always so cool cool de ~ ^^ (coz he shy hei ) ...

well on monday, slept so late so wake up not that early either, we had breakfast and watch some tvs...went out today! my parents brought us to parkway to eat sushi! First time bring him eat that..coz he not use to eating raw fishes ~ heihei...in the end i end up in the toliet while he didnt had any problem my daddy also ren till go home..But the food was delicious hee....i had saba?is it spell like that...haha.. and they had the dou fu + rice de meal hei hei...the food kept coming and my mouth was wuuuuu~ tai hao chi le~! ^^so happi........after dinner me went back his house with him...n continued my !!! " ai qing he yue "...and he with his computer again ~_~ this is after i'm with him...my new hobby...

during midnight~ my phone kept beeping coz many people msged n wish me happi birthday~ so touchiing...so many do take note of my b'dae...^^ and can spent the night beside him...^^ he was so concentrate with his stuff he forgot to look at the time also...-_- but...its alright... at least at that time he was with me...wo fei chang satisified le ^_^..

On tuesday! 27.9. he bought me go eat with kai neng, at crystal jade ! hee.. we walk walk around and waited for kai neng to reach...so long no do this with him le...always stay at home de, both of us getting more lazy...finally got chance to go out....*jump jump* hope next time got more chance.......though i prefer to stay home...got bed can rest anytime i want..hei hei .....then after dinner he came over to my hse again...maybe bec next two days i wont see him le as he will be going to malaysia to visit his friend..#_# ho~ on bike...me so worry dunno that thing safe or not...(>.<) pray hard nothing happen...safe and sound safe and sound oh!!!
well see him so many days... gonna miss him lo..~

tml gonna have a busy day! sushi again -.-....why go out with friens i also eat sushi ar.....

miss

2005-09-20T20:47:00.000-07:00

'Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much............'

-Obukwor E. Bigjoe -

true..no stars tonight...... its pouring rain...

2005-09-19T22:23:00.000-07:00

today i woke up late as usual....hei hei

then hope to reach school early around eleven to carry out my as usual Evil plan...hee...but well as i said i was late ~_~ i reached just in time to carry out my plan B ~ brought a handsome pencil black in color with anan accompanying me , then we went to library to study...told him to call me after his exams to have lunch together ... hee.. so happi to see him wearing the purple shirt i had for him..so guai..=3 hope he did like it..hei hei ... continue my evil plan i placed the little gift in between his books...told him to bring home then look look...hei~

was thinking of giving him a pen but i afraid he havent finshed yet so decided that i get him a pencil! hei hei evil plan completed... see him so tired..then heart pain that cant go exam for him..jus hope the pencil has my spirit to SUPPORT HIM! (though i hav exams myself too ^^)

anyway DA jia yao jiayo oh~ must pass with high marks oh~ ^^ dun forget to relax abit...^^ tough times gonna pass~

ps: now better go study -.- la du zhi 2 times today...pain pain..no energy

test

2005-09-18T23:50:00.000-07:00

Your Love Style is Manic

For you, love is the ultimate rollercoaster

And you love to hold on tight and enjoy the ride

Every time you fall in love, it feels like the first time

And while it's exciting and exhilarating...

It's also stressful and scary!

What's Your Love Style?

[ hmm....this picture is abit...hei hei ^^..ya scary]

Your Ideal Relationship is marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.

And that's marriage - with the right person.

You're serious about settling down some time soon.

Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

[ hoo~ this is more scary...]

You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance

You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea

The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood

It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

[heee.....this test much better..muax to mi darling onli ^^]

2005-09-18T16:48:00.000-07:00

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hee...my darling like this song...alway so irritating but...keeps playing in my head..haix...

你的样子越来越美越来越可爱
走到哪里都会有人
偷偷望着你
你的歌声越唱越美越唱越动人
唱到哪里都会有人偷偷流着泪
好久不见的你
是否别来无恙
是否心里有时
还在偷偷想着他
年复一年岁月无声
改变了我们得到什么
失去什么又有谁知道
好久没到这个地方来唉咿~
这里的人每个每个变了样
是否记得当初我为你们唱的歌
是否记得一路花儿为我们盛开
是否记得当初我们讨论的女孩
是否她已越来越美越来越可爱

2005-09-16T22:45:00.000-07:00

isabelle, you mei and shanae had fun with me today rite~! so long no see u all! friends are still important to me!just cant live without them!

went to bugis, saw a pretty purple shirt..^^bought for someone...shhh~ secret~ hei hei...

do you find normally when somethings that are too nice or too perfect on another hand, you will tend to doubt its value...whether is it really that good....when people tell me how caring or thoughtful or loyal a person can be, then thinking back at how they react in front of you... you will still see some hesitation in their eyes saying " i'm not really that perfect you know.."so whether to totally put trust in them and feel comfortable.... or place half of your bets and stayed on with the feeling fearing someday you will get cheated...man i'm confusing myself....i've passed the days where i totally have a fully trust on someone ... now my life just get worst...cause i've fooled and thrashed by people whom i loved... yayaya... foolish mi...^^

and i find that... everything when people say i think too much when i just a simple qns...have they ever realised they are then the ones who are thinking more than me? heee...yes i can be sensitive at times....i know many people like this about me... but at the same time they use this excuse to put blame on me as they do feel gulity when i asked a question which is just out of curiousity and not intergrating...hei hei....if you are clear in your consciences you will have nothing to fear and.....will be delighted to answer my every questions....^^ ya babe

2005-09-16T12:18:00.000-07:00

i wan to go back to the days where i would wake up glancing to the sky thinking when will i get to have someone whom i can called dear...n hold me to dawn...

sway with the trees looking for another dew that land from the heavens..

finshed a cup of hot chocolate, and walked the paths with the story characters...

now my life arent that simple and readable..i cant see as clear as my eyes just slipped into my chaotic mind, tears flicker at every upseting moments.... and happiness alway fall so fast i cant even keep in the small pocket ... of mine.

recently i saw two friend since i long seen...i'm really glad they looked great and blissful now...but at that moment i wished my only him can be right beside and build his arms around me with words saying , " we are as the same too..my dear. "

i'm just a another human being who too needs and willing to care and concern and most importantly ... love .
from the one i cherish very much .
because time never waits..
and sometimes feelings too..

milo`

2005-09-13T21:41:00.000-07:00

He loves me ...

bec he makes milo for me ...

=3 =3 =3

n

I love him too ...

bec i finshed the whole cup of sweet milo .....

=3 =3 =3